was I alone all along ?

was I alone all those years?

I welcomed you into my world as a mere friend
Took you from someone else,didnt know karma would one day land
I gave you my heart and trusted you knew what to do with it
And you legit did,for those couple of years
Introduced you to my family,  so that our union wouldnt be only our  memory
Alone, bc i wanted them to understand how you made me feel
I never thought you'd leave, now it almost feels like I was deluded
Your unconscious response to environment shook me
And my world came crushing down soon after that
It ended what we built for so long
Emotionally and Physically
The impossible tolerance of persona
The unbearable pain from the umbworld
Unacceptance of character from society
I had to take all that in
In the name of love

But when tables turned
Our love didnt stand the test of time
It was just her word against mine
She was made of everything I was made of
A silent screamer
Could Put ink onto paper
A dream chaser
A woman of amiable features
Too intellect to comprehend

And so my karma wasnt a bad b
She was an upgrade
A cute upgrade
As for us,we have become silent
Very distant too
Bc like any person on the verge of letting go
I dont want to step onto your toes
I dont wanna become one of your foes
But I miss my best friend
I miss having her attention when I talk
And I have cut down on talking time bc I dont wanna become a hock
I miss feeling like I have her heart on lock
If I lose this one too,It'd be just one of the greatest knocks
Of my life,I swear most will mock
Bc yeah,the said it was gonna end
I just didnt think It'd be this soon
Too soon yet we still havent been to the moon
Like we used to drool in bed together at night when the night was wasting away and our eyes visited our imaginations
When society saw blocked walls from success but we saw no limitations
You and I are just one of the best combinations and now
A part of me regrets burning bridges with others bc I thought I found something that would never come to a halt
But I aint really gonna blame you bc we both at fault
How do I even build something like that again
It feels like you the last best friend that will come into my life
Bc just like any of my greatest heartbreaks,imma lose hope after I lose you