Who am I? *A Mortal Instruments Fanfic*

Nightmare

Blackness. And figures lying on the ground. I look closer and find it's my best friends and my family. Mangled limbs twisted at odd angles, mouths agape in a silent scream. Some limbs were torn into pieces, crude bits of flesh next to, or hanging from the limbs. I scream at the broken bodies of my friends and family.

My feet fall out from under me and I'm dropped into another bit of blackness. I noticed up there it was all my mundanes friends. Here, it was Isabelle, lying in a pool of her own blood, her mouth formed in a silent scream, lifeless eyes staring into nowhere. A small distance away was Alec. His flesh was torn off and dangling in strips. His eyes too were lifeless and staring into nothing. There was also blood around him. I call out their names, but they were dead.

Again the world sends me spinning into oblivion. This time instead of falling in blackness, I fell onto stone. Pain jars my elbows. I stand up, glance around and see Jace, lying on the ground, dying. I start sprinting toward him, but the hallway seems to keep staying the same distance. I run harder and the corridor gets longer. I scream his name. Suddenly, I am actually running toward him. I drop to my knees. "Jace." I say, grabbing his shirt. I feel something warm and sticky under my hands. I take my hands away and see red covering my hands. Jace's blood.

I begin to scream his name. I know he can't hear me, but I keep hoping he can. His face is drained of color and his hair is matted and his eyes are no longer full of life, but they are a dull gold, Tears steam down my face, I result to shaking him. He didn't respond. Suddenly, I get lifted off my feet, and the invisible hand throws me across the room. I scream and slam into the wall. The force begins to throw me around like a ragdoll.

Bruised, battered and bloody, I lay in a daze on the ground. A cold voice calls from the darkness beyond. "You will never belong. Your friends will never accept you now. Even those who pretend to like you, will never really. Join me. I'll love you. I'll accept you and help you unlock your true potential."

"You're lying. My friends will get used to who I am. Jace accepts me. Isabelle accepts me. Even Alec seems to tolerate me." I say, tears still running. I try to sit up, but pain jars me. "You fool. Just watch and see." Her cold laughter recedes into the darkness.

"Ari. Ari." A voice says. "Ariella. Wake up. Wake up." My shoulders are being shaken. My eyes flash open and I gasp as if I'd been underwater. A thin layer of cold sweat covers my face. It shines in the moonlight. I look around, panicked. I almost scream but arms wrap around me. "Shh. It's ok. It's ok." Jace says, petting my hair. I bury my face in his shirt. I look around and see Izzy and Alec in my room too, with horrified looks on their faces. "You were screaming and tossing and turning. When Jace tried to wake you, you just jerked away." Izzy whispers.

 "We heard it from our rooms, which is a few doors down. We know Hodge didn't hear it. He sleeps on a different floor." Alec adds, with a, no, concerned look for ME on his face.

"Are you ok?" Jace draws me an arm's length away so he could see my face. "What happened? You look awful." He pulls me close again. My voice trembles. "A nightmare. It was awful. I saw all my friends dead, mangled, lifeless. I saw all of you mangled, with no life in your eyes, then a voice, it said nobody would accept me." I bury I face into Jace's shirt again. "It's ok. It was just a dream." He soothes. Alec and Isabelle look just as scared as Jace felt, he just knows how to hide it. "But it felt so real." I sob into his shirt.

"But listen to me. You're ok, all your friends are alive. You're alive. We are alive. And we are here for you." He adds. He just talks to me now. I don't know what he says. I just know I fall asleep in his arms, tears drying on my cheeks.