Last everything

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by Sylvia18titania

by Sylvia18titania

One shot 1/?

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Last everything
Written: August 15th
Edited : August 15th
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Last everything

wake up, eat breakfast, go to school , come back , eat lunch , do anything , sleep and repeat everyday ......so..tired suffocating I can't do this I can't live I don't want to live I can't anymore I can't why me ? why this ? Why does everyone hate me ? ... probably because I'm useless and stupid and can't do anything.

*Sniff* I realized I was crying little tears turned into a tsunami of emotion falling on my face until, *knock* *knock* *knock* I quickly rubbed my face with the sleeve of my hoodie and said with a shaky breath I managed to mutter out "c-come in.. " . My older brother came in the only one that excepted me and didn't hate me ,the reason for me to live after my mum left you can say he's my last everything.

he stepped in and the expression he held was different it was frightening,his eyes were looking down and he was slouching he looks-no it can't be he wouldn't , would he ? " c-come *hic* he-here *hic* brother " i realized my assumption was right he was drunk....a couple seconds pass and as I was about to start walking ...
he speed walked next to me and pulled my hair " LISTEN TO ME YOU LITTLE SHIT WHEN I SAY SOMETHING TO YOU , YOU DO IT RIGHT AWAY ! " I was frightened my heart was beating so fast in my chests tears threatened to come out of my eyes and then He kissed me ?!

I tried to get him off me this wasn't right he's my older brother and I'm his younger brother this wasn't right!! I just let go I was worthless ,I didn't have a future of success I was just and idiot a nothing just absolutely a piece of shit.

That night would scar me forever the next second I'm on my bed and he is on top of me and he does so many nasty things to me.. and all I can do is lay there and cry-I'm pathetic- like a child as much as I want to scream I can't my voice can't be heard and even if I could scream no one would come in no one cares ... I try not to moan or let out any voice but I gave up I deserved this I am a piece of shit useless a dipshit , fucktard a faggot I have no purpose in life why should I care

After at least 15-30 minutes he finishes up. I'm left there alone but before he gets out of the room he says " round two tomorrow " I couldn't handle this I can't I was looking at him trembling until he left.

I went to the bathroom took the pocket knife and I started to cut my wrist my legs my stomach anywhere I could until I couldn't handle it anymore I collapsed in my own blood
This is it I'm finally going to be happy finally going to be free from this world this hell after so many years I smile and then everything goes black ... finally all I wanted
Death.

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Word count : 329

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If you are going throw anything that's interfering with your happiness please do something you are important 😊 have a good day whoever is reading this !