Twit Talker (One Direction save a life story)

Alright, Pizza, Saved me how?

“Julia are you all right sweetheart”,Zayn asked me.I nodded my head yes even though I was clearly not alright.He smiled and they went to finish off the fans with a few thank you’s and goodnight's. 

“Thank You and Goodnight Los Angeles”,the boys screamed out over the crowd while I sort of stood in the shadows attempting not to be noticed perfect plan.Finally the stadium cleared and then the boys turned noticing me in the shadows.

“Come on love we won’t hurt you and we won’t let the fans hurt you”,Louis said.I slithered out from the corner of shadows.

“Being hurt by anyone is debatable Tomlinson that’s the thing about pain it demands to be felt why do you think the fans went ballistic on me”,I said.Again I got the awkward stares from all of them.

“Come on love we won’t hurt you we just want to be the best friends that you don’t have, and the fans can be ass holes at times well actually all the time really”,Liam said.I smiled someone actually wanted to be my friend wow, but really just ass holes I could have gotten killed actually I wish I had.I followed the boys back stage they introduced me to Paul Higgins their tour manager, their manager from Syco Records Simon Cowell, and then their was their hair stylist Lou Tisdale and her 2 year old daughter Lux.Eventually the boys asked if I want to hang around with them go get pizza or something so of course I said yes.So we stopped at Nightingale’s Pizzeria on the corner of High St. and 32nd Ave. 

“So Julia can you answer my question now”,Niall asked.Shit I knew this was coming.I exhaled deeply and then I swallowed hard clearing my mouth of saliva.

“Yeah no problem you saved my life with Diana due to the fact that I have contemplated committing suicide and I have made many attempts but actually in my tweet I was referring to the one time I almost lost my life due to that but a radio had turned on and your song Diana came on as everything was happening and well I stopped the blade just before it hit my ulnar artery which is the main artery in my wrist and I also have major problems with chronic depression,bipolar, bipolar depression, and continuous self harm issues”,I said a few tears slipping down my cheeks.It felt weird telling One Direction my problems and in such depth, usually I can handle myself when I talk about my problems but not now I broke down in tears.Then I flinched when Zayn started rubbing circles over my back in a failed attempt to sooth me.

“Shh your all right Julia”,Zayn said soothingly.Even though his words were comforting nothing ever worked.You could say I was a grenade ready to go off.But minimizing the casualties I caused was another issue.

“Zayn I’m not all right if you call being suicidal, depressed, and self harm all right then ok I’m all right now tell me this is all right that I got a bowie knife thrown at me and if I hadn’t moved you or gotten out of the way myself how would that have looked surely not  pretty now would it”,I said tears threatening to fall.