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Chapter Five

Eliana

'Are you feeling okay? Can I get you anything?' Mom asked for the four hundredth time

'Mom, I'm okay, seriously' I reassured her, snuggling further into the teddy Demi had bought me on my last day in the hospital, 'thank you for asking though'

I'd never been so grateful to be home before, the week and a half long stay in the hospital had made me gain so much fat, and lose so much muscle. Mom has been more strict with eating now, but I've started hiding my food when she's not looking. Luckily, that's most of the time.

I've been out for a week, and I've already lost the seven pounds they made me put on. I've only got four pounds to go until I get to my goal weight of twenty-three pounds.

Though, the dizziness is getting worse, and closer together, but I wouldn't dare admit it to my mom. I'm too scared of going back to that hospital.

'Good morning Ellison' Maddie said as she walked into the living room, 'nice to see you're still obsessed with that bear'

I rolled my eyes, holding the bear closer to my chest, Madison and I had been fighting all morning. I don't know what I did, but something pissed her off, she only calls me Ellison to taunt me.

Honestly, Maddie's taunts only made me feel sad. Sad that my near-drowning event has caused a rift in our relationship. I'd do anything to go back to that day and not go anywhere near the pool. Things would be so much better if I had of stayed in my room.

you're nothing eliana

I sighed, pushing myself up from the couch, blackness clouded my vision but I kept walking, eventually my sight came back, 'Phi?' Dallas said as I bumped into her, making me almost fall down the stairs. I found my balance again and walked past her. 'Eliana' she called, her voice showing more concern.

I ignored her once again, continuing up into my room. Though I knew none of this was my sisters fault, I hadn't spoken to any of my sisters since getting out. To be fair, Demi has been crazy busy so I haven't even seen her, I guess that means I'm not really ignoring her, more avoiding her texts.

you're fat eliana, you've done nothing all morning and shoved yourself full of food. how disgusting.

An unbearable sensation came over me, I ran over to my mirror only to see that my clothes no longer fit my, my stomach was hanging over my leggings, I looked horrible.

I threw my clothes off, and starting exercising in nothing but the diaper mom forced on me this morning and a crop top.

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'Phi, it's time for lunch beautiful' Dallas called from outside my door, I sighed, ignoring what she had said and continuing the sit ups I was doing, 'Eliana?' the door knob shook, 'unlock the door Elly, I'm serious'

I groaned, I was pushing myself to the limit and I was starting to feel physically ill. I stood up quickly, running to the door. As soon as I opened it the nausea got the best of me and I threw up on the floor next to where Dallas was standing, 'oh Phi, baby I didn't know you weren't feeling well'

I shrugged, 'get back into bed beautiful, I'll tell mom you're not well'

I didn't dare argue with my older sister, there was no point, she'd go tell mom I'm sick again, mom is going to unnecessarily freak out and then I'll convince her I'm fine and talk my way out of going back to the hospital.

I threw myself onto my bed, 'Actually, on second thought, maybe it's best not to worry her' Dallas said, tucking me in, 'I'll clean all of this up'