Look at me

Confesion?

"Hey Mark?"

Ethan spoke softly, his voice shaky and kind of scared.

"What's wrong?"

Mark saw the pain in Ethan's words, made him shudder at the possibility behind them.

"I... I uh n-need to uh t-talk to y-you about s-something"

His voice getting more shaky and worried as he went along. Mark starts panicking, he shuts his computer and turns around to seen Ethan staring at the floor, his knees weak, his arm draped across his body clasping the other with his clammy hand.

"O-Of course, what's going on Ethan"

Marks p.o.v
Oh shit did he find out, I swear to god if Tyler said anything. He's just gonna leave you, you know that right. No... the darkness, it can't be back already everything was going so well why... why now. Your a worthless piece of shit and no one would ever love you. 'Fuck off, you think I don't already know that, he would never like me because he's amazing and deserves someone just as amazing as he is. For gods sake he has a girlfriend Mark, stop getting your hopes up for nothing. Your just creating false hope for yourself.'

Third person p.o.v

And just like that silent tears started to form, and trickle down his face. Ethan looked up for a tiny second starting to continue but saw Mark crying. Ethan raced to his side, kneeling on the floor next to him.

"Mark, what's wrong"

Ethan said trembling, he hated seeing mark cry and this was the first in a while.

"Oh nothing, I'm fine don't worry about me... what were you gonna say?" He lied

Ethan looked taken aback by his selflessness asked again.

"Mark, tell me what's wrong"

He pleads begging him to answer. Mark grabs Ethan's shoulder and looks right into his beautiful now hazel eyes.

"Ethan I'm fine" he says not breaking eye contact, Ethan finds himself lost in his dark brown eyes.

Ethan's p.o.v
Oh my god, he's touching me and looking into my eyes! It's like he can see into my soul. I wish I could just look into his eyes forever, he makes all the pain go away and I find myself just staring into his beautiful chocolate eyes, not able to say anything... just forever staring. Until the silence was broken, bringing me back to reality.

"Ethan... Ethan!"

I see a snap in my face, shit I did it again.

"Oh sorry" He says blushing, trying to brush off what just happened. Ethan's eyes linger down to Marks lips. I would do anything to feel those beautiful lips on mine. He starts day dreaming about kissing him, but snaps himself back to reality. Stop it Ethan it's never gonna happen.

"Mark..."

I begin to say, am I really doing this?! I search his eyes again before continuing. I take a deep breath before finally saying it.

"Mark... I-I think I might be... g-gay"