Hi Love,
You are asleep next to me as I write this. Today marks my 54th birthday and just like every year I am writing my last words just in case something unfortunate happens to me. I know you hated this but I always want to come prepared.
Yesterday, you and our kids whistled me into a surprise out of town trip. We went out to experience the food and swam on the beach like a young couple on vacation. We haven’t done this is a while. It was a trip to remember. Our kids now have lives of their own and it has been us for quite some time now. You must have bugged them ton just to make this trip happen and it was worth every minute I have spent with all of you.
You haven’t change, you still always want to make small surprise and this trip has been one for the books. I savour the short stay we have for this one, I couldn’t help but think of all the adventures we have had together. Our paths cross back in our college days. Nothing connected us besides the sports we both love. Finally, your 19 years old self took up the courage to send that message to me and all I had to do was take a leap of fate.
I didn’t know what to do at first, I didn’t want to be rude and not respond. We started conversing through small talks but that didn’t last long because even before the night ends you made sure to invite me to watch your game the following day. I’m not sure if I was ever hesitant to say yes on your invitation but I was sure curious on what might be the outcome.
From that point on you have never stopped proving to me your love and commitment. With the past relationships I had, I thought that I was looking for loyalty not until you came along. Your love prove to me that loyalty is a choice but faithfulness is embedded in your being.
Your love took away the doubt and replace it with trust, your love look pass my imperfection and accepts me for who I am. We have faced the world full of judgement hand and hand. Our relationship was not a smooth sailing adventure but a journey full of learning.
Judgemental eyes was on us as the world learns our kind. We have lived at the time where the fruit of the one before us was blooming. It was the time of change, it was the time where you stood up and prove to me that the closet door was already far gone and that you are going to stand next to me for the future we want to be.
We went crazy at the start, we were so in love that the world was both with us and against us. We made stupid decisions for the expense of both our relationships and relationships with other people; even the future we wanted to achieve. A lot said that we were so young and so crazy and with all the things we have been through, I think they were right in a way but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
We both made big sacrifices just to be where we are today. You gave up the game we both love at one point just to prove your love and devotion. People turned their backs at you yet you choice me. You choice to love me despite all those people who believe differently. Being with you at that point and being so young I thought was the end of us but even when the clouds was so dark we are able to wait patiently and amend what was damaged.
We broke so many pieces of ourselves just because of our love but I’m glad we mended it together.
You, my batman, choose me from the beginning and prove to me every day that you still choose me as you wife. You choose me to have all those long nights of talks, or the nights where everything was just going the wrong way. You choose me to eat every kind of meal with you, at any time of the day including meals that involve you and me as the main course (sexual joke here). You choose me to go on adventures as we see the world and to the lazy times we just slump around our home with us and our kids as our company. You choose me to be you wife, the mother of your children and the woman who’ll stand next to you for the rest of your life. You choose me to receive all the kisses, hugs and any other intimate physical activity we can do (which is a lot). You choose me to receive all the love you could ever give.
I love you in every way possible that I can because your love Deanna was everything I have prayed for, hoped for. You my love is a blessing from above for me and our kids. A life time was never bad because I am spending it with you.
