This Is Hell Not Life! (One Direction FanFic) ON HOLD!!

Chapter 2 - Its Only You Here!

After 2:35 minutes we reached Manchester. Walking out of the car through the rainy weather. I walked in our house. In this apartment we got a white living room with two black leather couch and a glass coffee table also a TV. We got two bedrooms. One for me and one for dad. We're sharing the toilet which had a shower and a bath. There's a modern kitchen too. I went straight to get my school clothes and equipment ready. The uniform is a black blazer with red tie and grey skirt. I put my black tights with it and black high tops. After finishing my school bag I unpacked my suitcase, threw most the clothes in the washing basket. I then changed into some blue and green stripped PJ and fell asleep after setting the alarm on.

*

My dad stayed waking me up the whole half an hour. Nothing new really!

I set half an hour before the usual time I wake up at. Getting off my bed I remembered that I have school. My worse nightmare. Could earth just open and sallow me?

As I took a warm shower thinking of what they might say about me or to me this year. What kind of things would they take the mick of about me?

Stepping out of the shower I dried my hair and body. I slipped in my black t-shirt bra and matching undies as I put on. I slipped into my leggings than my tights. That's something I always done so they won't see my skin and comment or do something to embarrass me. Putting my skirt on with the white long sleeved shirt, I tucked my shirt in, done my tie and put my blazer on. I straightened my hair and put it in a bun. What I always done. I done my make, not much so I won't look like a barbie. God I hate Barbies!

Foundation, Mascara, eyeliner and lipgloss was all I put. Adding my shoes on and grabbing my bag I snatched a chewing gum packet of the counter and went out chewing a bit of it. I always carried chewing gum and make up with me.

Getting the bus to school and walking through it to find the straight in my face.

"Well look who we have here!!"Aiden said with his hands around Tulisia's waist. His fame partner. They go around school acting like a couple to get attention which everyone somehow finds so adorable. I call them the couple of evil.

"OMG some people just make me sick!!"Kelly said. One of the group's sluts. She lost her virginity when she was in year7!!

"Yeah man. The school lit up when you guys came but when some other people came it feels like its pitch-black!!"Alfie added. I tried to ignore them and walked past them until some hard grip grabbed my hand violently. A whimper asked my mouth but I'm not gonna cry for them!! No way I'm gonna cry cause of them.

"Where do you think your going?"Ashton hissed holding my hand too tight.

"Going to class?"I answer. Does my answers always sound like a question? I'm such a saddo just like what they called me.

"We didn't finish bitch!"He hissed again but with more hate in his eyes.

"Kids what are you doing there? Go to lesson now!!"Mrs brown shouted at us. Straight as Ashton saw her he let go of my hand. They all went to class but Alfie came back.

"Come behind the G block in lunch or you won't be happy!"He left the message before running back to them and putting his arm around Kelly's neck. I gulped and went to listen quietly sitting in my place as the teacher went on about Algebra.

*

The bell rang informing us that its lunch. I gulped once again remembering I had to go meet the behind the G block. No one really goes behind it except for them. They go smoke, smoke weed, take drugs, drink and all that. All teachers know they're always there and because their wealthy they give some massive amount of money to the teachers to keep their place safe and to stand their and watch out for them. Walking to the G block I reached the teacher zone. I don't want teachers to know I'm with them!! Its just gonna ruin my reputation!

I brushed it off and walked. I don't wanna see anymore of the hateful side of them.

"What do you want here Miss Quickerned?"Mr Jones asked.

"Uhh- umm- i- well - y-you s-see-"I started stuttering but Alfie cut me.

"She's with us sir!"He said as he dragged me by the hand tightly. When we reached their he pushed me against the all and punched me. I shot my eyes tightly as the pain went through my body. The other gang joined him as the started beating me up.

The bell rang to tell us that its last lesson and lunch is finished. Luckily there was a toilet in the G block. I went from the back door. I looked at myself in horror. My face was all bloody and bruised. My hairs soo messed up. I washed it as all the scars and bruises showed. I cleaned my face as I covered it with foundation to hide most of the bruises. I put a plaster on a wound I had on my left upper cheek. I re done my make up and my hair then checked myself. Thank God!! Everything looks normal. LOOKS!!!!

All my body is sour. I got a banging headache from the times the pulled my hair.

Dragging my bruised sour body to English and walking in late. After a lecture from the teacher about how this year is really important and I need to pay more concentration. I just nodded and sat in my place. Thinking about what they've done.

"Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before.

Hurt myself again today."

Here I am now in the toilet cutting myself. Ouch it hurts.

"And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame"

I can't exactly blame anyone for it cause not them who's cutting me and forcing me to do it!!

"Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me"

Mum. Where are you? I miss you!

I wish you were here. None of this would've happened!!!

I remember when I felt sad you told me you'd always be my friend. You'd pull me into a hug to make me feel better or if I'm cold to make me feel warm.

"Ouch I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,

Yeah I think that I might break

I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe"

I used to always feel safe when I'm with you. I felt like I existed!!

I'm lost without you

I used to be someone but now I'm no-one...

*

Its 5 months now since school started. My dad is always out telling me he's with his friends. He's been acting very weird now a days. On the phone to someone 24/7 or out. But he seems really happy. The last time I remember him being this happy was before when mum was alive. and not cause I'm not as happy as him I'm gonna ruin it for him!!

Well about me. I get beaten up everyday in school. They sometimes tell me to come after school and meet up then beat me. I haven't shed a tear yet and I'm not planning to. I'm now gonna show unworthy people like them my weakness!!

"Georgia!"My dad called me.

"Yeah?"I asked.

"Tomorrow we're going to Johannah's house"he said smiling. Johannah eyy, that's why he's smiling!! Bustteddd

"Okay"I said and went back to my room. My dad had totally forgotten about feeding me like the doctor said. Which is good for me. If I ever eat I'd be going to the toilet and throwing it all up. The only thing I eat is chewing gums and if I drink I only drink water. Maybe Boost or Redbull. That's even more than I deserve!