About Me

About Us - Weed

Author note: Weed as in gardening weed, not the marijuana weed

Will there ever be a 'Us' if I were to confess my feelings towards you? It may seem simple to you but it's complicated to even talk about it in real life. I felt inferior to those girls that surround you. I'm not bubbly, pretty, have a large following on social media and does not have the dream body that you want. It does seem shallow of me to say all these, but I remember when a friend of yours says that you don't like girls who have my body type, the moment I heard it, the light of hope diminished just like flame dissipate from the candle.

Despite all that, we were friends not good friend but friends. Even though you were a year older, you act childishly around me, or that's how I felt. I may complain or make a fuss about it but I like it because you bring out the playfulness in me which turn those moments special for me. How could I forget when you were sitting across me and playing with the nerf gun. I was pointing the 'weapon' at you and act as if I will not pull the trigger while making gunshot noises. But eventually I pull the trigger and you felt betrayed but laugh it off and try to shoot me, but you didn't. during our little banter of shooting, our junior says that we look cute, you didn't deny it and just smile. On the other hand, I was flabbergasted and slap his arm. You decided to treat me, well us, me and my junior some drink to cool it off, you don't know how excited I was inside me as if my heart was doing backflips over and over again.

I remember when I first saw you cry in our club room, face red and tears streaming down your cheek while surrounded by your group of friends, my heart breaks as I wasn't able to do anything and just proceed to do whatever I supposed to do. When I step a foot out of the room you call out my name, I peek my head back in waiting for your next sentence but all you said was "nevermind". I should have said what's wrong or what happened or why are you crying but I was too timid to do so with your friends around.

Cute was the expression that you used that make me fall for you. Whenever I do something dumb or embarrassing the first word that comes out from your mouth was cute followed by the smile that makes me tomato red and melty on the inside. That was when I prefer people find me cute than pretty. I admit that I am annoying well so are you, maybe that's why you entertain me so well.

All I want for is the good memories that I have whenever I'm with you but its impossible isn't. With all those encounters deep down, I know that you do not have feelings for me but for my best friend. I know about your little late-night text with her and it saddened me. Yet my feeling for you still grows just like those weeds on the field, no matter how much you pull out they will still grow.