Silent Stalker

Secretly stalked me year after year

Lurking amongst the darkness and shadows

Haunted my dreams night after night

Robbed my soul of the precious gift of light

Stole my dreams and torn apart all my hope

Ripped my heart out and left it to die

Watched me suffer as I begged and cried

Struck me out of the blue that cold, dark day

I could not fight you off - your message was clear

Although you were silent and did not have anything to say

Turned my world inside out and upside down

Shattered pieces of who I was tossed on the ground

Alone, I struggled to find the strength to carry on

Emptiness was all I had left - everything else was gone

Every step I took forward seemed pointless and long

Day after day, I cried and I prayed

"Please God; help me end this pain today"

Did not think I could make it through each day

But here I am stand fighting this battle my own way

I may not always beat you, but I know I can survive

Day by day, I watch for your presence to be known

I will not let you sneak up again - I will not be thrown

A rollercoaster is what my life has become today

But I am prepared for the highs and lows

I will survive this crazy, neurotic ride - someway

My eyes are open now - I know the chaos you create

I will not sink to your level - I chose not to hate

This journey through hell has a lesson to be learned

Amongst the rubble there are treasures hidden within

I will speak out and have my voice be heard loud and clear

Help others find their way out and no there is nothing to fear

I will stand up and let my secret out - no longer a whisper, it is now a shout

No longer afraid of the stigma - I am here to finally speak the truth

Whether you hear my true message is completely up to you

My name is Melonie and I need to finally say

"I struggle with mental illness - I have always been this way"

For all my peers who fight this fight, know you are never alone