Why?
Why did I choose to stay?
Was it because I loved him?
Of course it was, that's what most assumed.
No one knows this, but there is something I need to say, and I need to say it, because it is eating me up inside.
I was always wrong.
I was the bad guy in the relationship.
Atleast that's what made him think.
His friends wouldn't do shit to stop it.
Yes, I was involved in an abusive relationship.
Surprised?
I know, why would a girl like me be in an abusive relationship.
I'm too nice, and too smart to be in one.
Well, guess what, I was dumb enough to fall for it all.
All the lies.
All the cheating.
All of the games he played.
He practically played with my mind.
He left scars on my heart, and hurt it emotionally.
I have emotional problems from it now.
I can't trust many.
Since, I've been cheated on.
Lied to.
Broken promises.
I've even been struck by him.
A red mark still on my leg since september.
Hasn't really gone away.
There is a reason why I can't speak of him.
Because I try my best to forget him.
I often pretend that I've only had two boyfriends, but really know it is a lie.
Why?
What did I do?
What did I do to get cheated on?
What did I do to get beat up on?
What did I do to get money taken from me, and promised to get it back?
What did I do, to deserve all of this?
What did I do to have him strike on me and yell at me?
What did I do?
What did I do to make it happen?
Was it because his ex girlfriends lied to him in the past?
Was it because his ex girlfriend before me faked a pregnancy?
Was it because I don't say anything so that I don't get yelled at for talking?
What did I do?
Not too sure.
But has left emotional damage.
Left problems that I can now face.
I suffer from depression.
I suffer from being beat on.
I fear another relationship like this might happen again.
I feared that he would kill me if I stayed with him longer.
I was Emotionally.
I was Physically.
I was Abused.
But, I stayed.
Why did I stay?
Why.....
Why....
Why...
Why..
Why.
WHY!
Why did I stay?
I wasted an entire year on someone.
Someone I thought was perfect.
But ended up being something that was a waste.
A waste of space.
A waste of time.
Most importantly, though.
A waste of my time.
Everyone asks me this question,
"Why did you stay?"
This is my answer.
Because, he told me that there won't be anyone else out there like him.
But, you know what,
He was right.
I dumped him.
Then gave him a second chance.
Don't know why I did.
Then broke up with him again because it still continued.
A few weeks later,
I found my new boyfriend through an App called Tinder.
All is good now.
Nothing has happened.
Haven't heard from him since September 2014.
Let's keep it that way.
Yes, I have been through this. I came out as not the victim, but a survivor.
Women around the world everyday are abused emotionally and physically.
They shouldn't be put through the pain that the other one is giving them.
They need to leave before it is too late.
