Just

[Just - Part 4 - 6/6/2016]

It was raining, maybe it was the season of monsoon. Had been some what like 4 to 5 months of dating and 1 to 1.5 years of knowing each other, she texted me her plan for the 6 days vacation college was giving, I instantly replied with approval, was quite obvious I would, I loved her and what better than the chance to spend day and night with the one you love. Back in the corner of my mind, I always had it somewhere that shyness to ask her how will we stay and where? But I had to, so I did. She always was the bold and brave one between us, she said in hotel. Being my first ever staying out with some girl, it was full of anxiety and shyness. The day arrived and I booked an auto and I asked our beloved, regular auto driver to pick me from my hostel gate and showed him way to girls hostel, went in front of their hostel gate, we paused and waited for her to come out. She had worn white cropped T-shirt, with black sleeves, black jeans and white Adidas shoes. She looked elegantly beautiful as she always managed to do, with her perfectly curled hair, and deep coffee brown eyes, and like perfect spring flower face she bloomed and I smiled back. She got in and the driver had her as his favorite human to be the one above all in our college, she started a conversation with him, she knew 60% of Tamil already, she was a quick learner. We had our college in Pallakapalayam which is just a very very very small place in a big state as Tamil Nadu, we had to reach a bus stand in Erode from where we would catch a bus to Chennai, the capital of Tamil Nadu and one of metropolitan cities of India. It was raining when we got there, we had a room booked already so we checked in and collected the keys and did all the procedure that happens normally and in the end we got in our rooms. The bag was already there so she opened her bag and took her clothes out for change after bath. It always is hot in Chennai, so she looked at me and said, "honey you got to wait". I looked at her impressed already, anyway, I always use to be impressed of her, even if it was a simple blink of her eye. She went in washroom, and I stayed there looking at the mirror asking myself why would she choose me of all the people in this college? I went inside the mirror and getting into another dimension passing one by one, I channeled my thoughts and as it did pass through I was trying to grab courage, to hold her and make one right kiss. She got out, and smelled me and pushed me to washroom asking me to take bath, I did as asked. As I got out, I see her in front of mirror watching herself and caressing her hair, she looked at me and asked "why me of all the people that loves you?" I looked at her, surprised. Again she said "there are so many people that loves you, so many people that wants to date you, so many whose text are still there in your WhatsApp, trying to know you better, so many who might not want to date you but does wants your time and attention, but me? Why me?" I looked at her, impressed again. I went close to her and kissed her on forehead, "nothing makes sense, if it isn't you in a human soul, every body got things I want, everybody can give me what I seek, but you are a discovery that I am doing and have a lot more to do, that I didn't know existed in a human", I replied. "You are you, and no one else is you" I said and smiled full, took her hand on my checks and said, well now you got me and you are locked here and got no where to go. She kept her one arms around me and we stared at each other and travelled for a while. I couldn't hold my breath so I turned to her and kissed her. I know how it felt, it felt soft and just amazing. We went kissing for miles and stopped for a while. She took her phone and we clicked a decent picture, played a song and we kissed few more miles, and I started to undress her so did she. We were almost close to be naked, when she smiled in my mouth with my tongue still inside hers. I looked at her surprised and found out, she needed more time, but she said nothing but looked happy, and joyful and bit confused, and I got impressed. I said okay. She smiled and we lied down in bed, half naked. She played a song, named "Love Somebody by Maroon 5" the song had a good beat and lyrics was absolutely good to sing on, but there was a line, which she sang always, looking at me, Every time she played that song, on repeat, she made sure I followed that line, that it sank deep inside of me, she was serious when she sang that line. "Love me today, don't leave me tomorrow" and this line, still keeps me awake, not always, but when I think of rain and you and just any song that gives me chill. I still am awake to this, and I am sure that so are you in some corner where we are left with nothing but memories. This song played today, when I was traveling back from White Hall to my Home, the driver played it, also it is monsoon, and here it is raining, heavy, and I looked at every dew drops, that was there on the shield of that car, falling down by gravity, and it still gives me shiver, this song, that you sang, again and again and again and again "Love me today, don't leave me tomorrow", never intended.

Nirnai Chettri.