Eternity

Jeron

It was past 10 in the evening. I am here somewhere in Antipolo to unwind. empty cans are all over my place. I'm a bit drunk, yes. but It would be much nicer if i get wasted right? I want to forget the pain I was feeling, the anger, the heartbreak, the loneliness. this feeling keeps on killing me every single day of my life. the pain is too much to bare. It's like I want to throw away myself in the cliff right away not wanting to be alive the next day.

Gusto ko mag isip isip. what could possibly so wrong para umabot kami sa ganito? we were so happy. I remember the memories we had in this place. the love we shared while looking at the night sky and wonderful city lights.

The place is cold and relaxing. Dito kami tumatambay to chill after a long tiring day. when we lost in our games, it became our love nest somehow and a crying place as well. we used to went here at night timing sa walang tao.

Until now, I don't know kung anong rason why she broke up with me. for pete's sake I gave her everything, everything I could possibly give.

Hindi ko namalayan na tumutulo na pala ang luha ko. it's been 2 months and yet I can't move on. I tried.... but I just cant.

Masakit sobra. it's killing me everyday and I keep hating myself for feeling this way. the pain never stops and so as my love for her.

"MIKA BAKIT?! ANONG MALI SAKIN?! ANO KULANG KO?! MASYADO BA AKONG POSSESSIVE?! MASYADONG SWEET?! SOBRA BA AKO MAG SELOS? SABIHIN MO NAMAN PARA MAI-TAMA KO!"

I can't help myself for crying out loud. sobra na yung sakit, Nababaliw na ako kakaisip what went wrong sa relasyon namin. hindi ko na kinakaya, I want to die!

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Mika

Walking my way to the place we used to go, hindi ko maiwasan mapa throwback. those overnights, food trips, and all the tears and sweetness na na-witness ng place na 'to.

Nanghihina ako, hindi ko alam kung dahil sa kondisyon ko or sa nafifeel kong kalungkutan ngayon.

I feel so weak, I feel hopeless. Did I made the right decision? Did I chose the things the could make his life more reasonable to live with? God knows how much I love him, alam ng Diyos kung gaano ko kayang mag sakripisyo to keep his dreams come true.

Ayaw ko makasagabal, ayaw kong kaawaan nya ako. All I wanted is to see him happy and live his life without me. if only I could turn back time. if only we could have much time.

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Mika is making her way to an empty park. She doesn't know what to feel. her beating heart does not make her feel any good. she don't know why. she doesn't want to know why.

Alam nyang nararamdaman nya lang ito when Jeron is around her. but then she don't want to assume, she don't want to keep her hopes up. not anymore.

When she reach the place, she saw a man drinking, sobbing quietly and breathing heavily.

His back facing her and yet she knew who it was. he doesn't need to face her..... her heart knows everything about him.

"J-Jeron?"

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Jeron

"J-Jeron" says a voice behind me. I knew who it was. her sweet voice that give shivers to my spine everyday of my life. the only voice that can make me calm in an instant. I knew it... I knew it was her.

"Mika" I said in a plain voice. I never expected her to be here, I don't expect myself to see her again either.

I don't know what to feel, kanina lang gustong gusto ko sya makita at mayakap and ask her kung anong naging mali saakin, saaming dalawa.