~❀ Hanahaki disease ❀~ || ~Kaito's POV

{ Intro / chapter 1 ~ again }

That stupid nerd...

I had loved Aiko since we were kids. He was always so damn nice to me, and I fucking liked it...

Back then we didn't have to worry about stuff like love, hate, relationships, what's wrong and what's right... Until about 7th grade when my I told my friends about my love for him while he was away. apart from bullying me because I'm gay, they told me that Aiko would never love me back, because he was straight and was crushing on another girl in our grade. Little did I know; this was just a sick joke because they wanted a reaction out of me, but, being the idiot I was, I believed them and got pissed off at Aiko for not liking me back, and so I ended up bullying him. He seemed scared of me, and that just pissed me off even more. I ended up taking all of my anger out on him, but he stood through it all, smiling like nothing'd happened, and we could go on being friends until the first grade of high school, when he did something I never thought would happen.

After school, he called out to me when I was walking home, and he told me that he loves me.

My mind shattered at hearing this. He loves me?? What the hell? Since when!? This isn't another joke... right!?

stupidly enough, I ended up threatening him again. I was too much of a coward to tell him I loved him back, so I left, leaving him feeling crushed on the sidewalk. After telling him something that I regretted greatly.
"why even try??"

It was what my old friends had said to me a couple of years ago, and I hated the fact that I'd become like them, I should've just told him I liked him back! I had my chance, right then I could've confessed, but I blew it.

And now, he probably thinks I hate him.

For the first time in ages, last night, when I was going to bed, i cried.

Thinking about how crappy a friend I'd been, how, even though I treated him like shit, he loved me, and how he'd probably never forgive me now, not after that.