Just Random

😷Just a Mask 😷

                           Everyday I wake up and go to school and I see my friends and hug them and smile       and laugh and they tell me oh your smiling your happy that's great and all i say  is yeah because I am to scared to tell them how I actually feel deep inside and maybe it's best if they don't  know because then they didn't have to worry or pity me. I only have one friend were I can be me i don't need a mask around her, because If i fake a smile or laugh she will know because she does the same, she hides behind her broken mask just like I do. It's my safe place at school but when I'm at home my mask is gone because there is no one around to see how I really feel because I can be my self the person who curls into her blankets and crys or just lays there and thinks with no expression on. But most days I think that hey if I smile through the pain then I'm okay right... right? But  no i'm not okay in reality who ever is actually truly  okay..there may be a good amount of people but more than half of the people around you are just hiding behind their mask just like me and you..