Do you remember when we met?
Cold summer day...or was it hot winter night?
You don't know, do you?
I don't know either
That day, that fateful day
How old were you...a million years, a trillion?
Why is it that the details of the fateful day I cannot remember?
You and I, we didn't need introductions
It was love at first sight, I knew it...you knew it too...
You also knew you weren't good for me, but you flirted like you were born doing it
You enticed, enthralled and seduced your way into my heart
You filled empty voids....you completed my sentences
...at one time, it was just you and I
It never really was you and I but you made me believe it was
You said we would get married,
I said Las Vegas...
You laughed and said our love was real,
And deserved more than that
You opened the gate to beautiful places,
You showed me Eden on earth,
The place only you and I could see
The riches of the world meant nothing...I had you, a rare jewel
You said eternity,
I believed you...
You loved me and it was all that mattered...
Meanwhile, you were busy sucking at my soul
I had sold my soul to the devil without knowing it
You ate my flesh bit by bit
You devoured me, sending me to freezing empty nights,
I would freeze and beg for death
You came in the morning, holding your arm to me, telling me how much you loved me
Your arms were like a blanket...so soft...so warm
I forgave you.
I meant the world to you, you told me that.
You showed me a magical world,
A world where I was a king, I ruled,
You gave me strength when I had none,
With you around me, I couldn't be shy...
...but then, you sent me to the fires of hell
I burnt and reached for you,
Only for you to laugh,
Stabbing at me with that sweet laugh of yours
When I couldn't hold on any longer, you rescued me
My Knight in shining armor, my destroyer...
You told me it was only a test
You told me you wanted to know if I loved you...
We broke up and got back together every single day that I saw you
You broke up with me and I always came running back to you,
You welcomed me with opened arms, as if you hadn't broken up with me
Now I wonder why I never found that bizarre...
One day you invited me to join you in an airplane
That sweet smile captivated me...how could I say no?
Who could have told me that in that beautiful head of yours hid a sinister plan?
As clouds engulfed us I told you, you were the most beautiful thing in my world
Did that upset you my love?
Maybe I'll never understand why you did what you did
You said, Love was nothing, I was going to worship you
You pushed me out of the airplane without a parachute
In that moment, I knew what you meant by "worship"
...because, I didn't wish I had a parachute, I wished I had you
I knew with you I could fly
I knew with you I could do anything
I didn't know that with you I could die...
I gave you all of me because I believed in you
You started controlling me,
You made me powerless so I could always run back to you
Even though I had a bit of power over you,
I would never hurt my love
Maybe I was a bit selfish
I knew if they came and took you away I would be lonely
We promised to protect each other,
...but one day my life became too much and you couldn't help
Remember that day, I decided you were mine and mine only.
You told me to stop,
You cried that you couldn't just be mine,
I grabbed you, the whole lot of you and had my fill
You called me stupid, but I didn't care
You asked me why I was leaving you
They called my name; all those you said didn't understand me,
They cried, all those you said didn't love me,
They watched me die; all those you said were liars...
Surprisingly, I cannot remember anything now
Because you blinded me
You told me lies
You stabbed me
You KILLED ME
Some days I cry for my killer
Some days you don't exist
Some days I'm strong enough to leave
Don't I always come back?
Don't you always tell me you told me so?
Don't you always say no one will love me but you?
You don't care what you do
...and I can't care but still love you,
The love of my life,
MY ADDICTION