A Thousand Good Times, With You. -Post Malone-

Am I Dreaming?

I got into Austin's car and didn't say a word to him, didn't look at him, I didn't even bother to acknowledge his presence. Music quietly played over the silence we were sharing, making me think he wasn't there even more. Austin heavily sighed and looked over at me. I glanced at him and we made eye contact. Austin opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out. He tried again and his words hit me hard.

"She means nothing to me. You're my everything. I fucked up, I know. You can be as mad as you want at me. Just when you want me to explain tell me. I'm here."

I looked at Austin with sorry in my eyes.

Does he really think I'm going to forgive him?

"Fuck." I mumbled. Austin scrunched his eyebrows in confusion and glanced at me, but also keeping his eyes on the road.

"Austin, I want to know but I can't. You mean so much to me. All of the fame and popularity is getting to me. I love you, forever and always. You know that. But I can't forgive you, I was obviously not good enough so you went out and found another girl." I said in a low voice.

"that's not what happened..." Austin said in a growl.

"WELL THEN WHAT THE FUCK DID HAPPEN?" I screamed.

"SHE FUCKING CAME BACK TO ME. I COULDN'T STOP HER. AND WHEN I SAID 2 WEEKS SHE WANTED ME TO SAY THAT. SHE PUT ME IN A TRANSE, SHE WANTS ME BACK IN HER FUCKING LIFE! I TOLD HER I WANTED TO BE IN YOURS. I WANT TO MARRY YOU. I WANT TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH YOU. I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY FUCKING LIFE WITH YOU. CAN YOU NOT OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES AND SEE THAT, ASHLYN? I LOVE YOU TO FUCKING DEATH," Austin yelled.

We pulled into the driveway in silence. I got out of the car and ran to the guest bedroom, my new room. I shut the door and had my back slide down it. Tears ran down my face as I comprehended what just happened. I heard the front door slam and heavy footsteps pace the floor next to me. Only a wall separated us. I let my sobs get louder as I pulled myself to my new bed. I pulled out my phone.

Ash: I need you over at Austin's. Now.

Ava: Omw.

I buried my face into my pillow and cried. A river of tears. I spiked up when Austin opened my door and walked straight to me. I looked at him with fear as he walked to me. I wiped my tears from my face and stared at a man I used to trust.

"what the fuck do you want..?" I mumbled.

Before Austin could say anything, Ava came bursting through the door. I didn't hesitate to run to her. Ava was my safety. She would pull me up from the ocean that was drowning me. Once I could breathe again, she would let me float, until I drowned again.

I sobbed into Ava's shoulder and Austin just watched. After a minute or two I pulled away from her. Austin looked at me coldly, but with sorrow in his eyes and left the room.

"I have to stay with him for a month," I said. Ava nodded and looked down at the floor.

"Please monitor me. I swear I can't stay with him. He's going to drive me insane. He loves me still. I can't live with a person that I love but can't be with," I begged.

"Just forgive him." Ava said.

"I CAN'T!" I screamed, loud enough for Austin could hear.

"Okay... At least make a good relationship with him." Ava mumbled. I nodded.

I felt like I was dreaming...

But what if... I am dreaming...

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Hey guys, so I really am running out of ideas so I was just going to wait until the new album comes out next Friday!! I'm super excited. Don't forget to vote!

Love you all!

(Also sorry this is trash lol)