Her departure

Just a song

I need to let her go. I need to move on.

But I feel like she is trying to tell me something, thing is, I have no clue what that 'something' might be.

I think I'm going nuts.

It's 3:16 in the morning, so I decide on taking a long bath. While taking a bath, this need to sleep takes over me and I feel the urge to stay awake, but of course, it doesn't work.

******dream******

At a restaurant...

I see her, talking with someone. That someone seems quite familiar. I just can't figure out who he is.

I sit in a table near them to listen to the conversation.

"I just have to let him know." Natalie complains. and lets a sigh of frustration.

"He can't know. Thats the problem, you are dead anyways." he said a bit annoyed.

***** end of the dream*****

Shit. I fell asleep again.

The bathtub was full and water was falling to the floor. I got up from the shower, to take my phone. I put really loud music. I think 'escape the fate' was on, but I wasn't actually paying attention... until suddenly I realize that I have to change that Pandora station, because Picture Perfect was playing.

'Angels fall

It's not your fault

Time goes on without you

Goodbye old friend

We'll meet again

Life goes on without you

(Why did you have to go?)

I'd give up my eyes to see you one last time

And I'd give all my fingertips to touch you

And I could paint you picture perfect even if I were blinded

But you had to die for me to see how to live'

By the time the song ended, I was already crying. I just miss her, a lot. why did she had to go?

Enough, Adrian. She is not coming back. stop crying, and go put some clothes on. You disgusting man!

Ok now that sounded like my mother...

After I put on some clothes, I go buy breakfast. You know, because I'm too lazy to prepare it my self.

Food is always the answer to my problem. for a few minutes, at least.

I'm sitting in a coffee shop a block away from my apartment. So, after eating a sandwich, I sit there for a while. I'm afraid of going back and start crying again. I sound like a girl, a five year old girl to be more specific.

But hey, don't judge people cry.

"Excuse me" said a woman looking at me.

"Uh, me?" I ask confused. There are multiple tables available here.

"Yes, Is this sit taken?" she ask, with a seductive smile.

"No, but neither are those sits" I simply respond to her.

" Well, I guess that is a nice way to say 'go away'" she said racing a eyebrow waiting for me to respond.

"With all due respect, I'm not quite in the mood for this type I conversation" I say annoyed.

She sits down anyways, not caring about what I just said.

"With all due respect sir, I'm just interested In knowing about you. You come here most days of the week, and you always come alone" she said playing with her hair.

"And you think I'm going to tell a completely random stranger my problems? Oh, without to mentioning the fact that the same stranger observes me most of the week." I say while standing up and trowing the food at the garbage.

"I didn't intend to disturb you." she says faking hurt.

"Have a nice day" I say giving a fake smile.

While walking to my apartment, I notice a little cute dog with fluffy hair.

I tried to get him/her. I'm not quite sure what gender it was, but ran away anyways.