Choni one shots

74: The One With The Fucked Up Story Line

Note: in this story Toni is a dude!

TONI POV:

I stop her. "Cheryl." I look at her. "What?" She ask frustrated. "Your mom will be pissed if she finds us alone making out." I whisper. She pours more wine. "It's ok. She's on a business trip we have the house to ourselves." She kisses my neck. "No! Cheryl. I don't want my first to be in the hot tub." I whisper. "Oh. Of course. That makes sense. If I pushed you to far..." I shake my head. "You didn't. I just can't do this right now." I get out and grab a towel. "I'm sorry, I know we've been together for a while now. I just have some stuff from my past that has stopped me from getting past this moment. I have to go." I grab my shirt and throw it on. "I'll see you tomorrow." I whisper and walk away. I go home. "Sweet Pea! I'm home!" Sweets and I live together. Both our parents threw us out so we now live together. I hear moans from upstairs and roll my eyes. I go downstairs to the basement which is where I stay, we both realized that if we live that close to each other one of us might kill the other. I lie down on my couch, I watch whatever's on my tv and fall asleep until my phone wakes me up. I look at it and it's Cheryl, I decline her call and fall back to sleep.

"Toni." I jolt awake. "Sweets." I look at him. "We're going to be late to school." I roll over. "I'm not going." I roll over. "I'm hungover." I whisper. "What happened last night?" He ask quietly. "We almost had sex and we both know that you don't want to ever think about that."

I walk out of the guys locker room out to the gym to see Cheryl sitting on the bleachers. "Bombshell!" She looks up at me. "Toni. Put a shirt on." I look down. "Right!" I throw my shirt on and walk over to her. "What happened?" She ask quietly. "What do you mean?" I ask knowing exactly what she's talking about. "Last night." I sit down in front of her. "We both know I'm a virgin. I just get so uncomfortable when it comes to sex." I whisper. "Why?" She ask quietly. "I honestly don't know." I insist. "Last night you said that some stuff happened to you have stopped you from having sex. Toni if we're going to be in a relationship we need to be open to each other and ourselves!" She stands up. "I don't know if I'm ready to talk about it or be in a serous relationship." I walk out. "Toni!" I don't turn back. "Toni lets talk about this!" She grabs the back of my shirt. "There's nothing to talk about." She places her hands over my arms. She rubs my scars on my arms. I look down. "I haven't been cutting in a while these are old. Except that one." I point at one. "But I accidentally picked at it in my sleep. I think. I don't know I woke up one morning covered in blood." She laughs softly. "I don't think I can do this though. Not right now." I whisper walking away. "Toni! I love you!" I turn around. "I love you too, but I can't do this!" I walk out to my truck. It doesn't start so I go back inside luckily Cheryl is still there. "My truck won't start." I say awkwardly. "I'll help you if you go on one last date." I nod. "Ok." I shrug. We go outside and go to my car.

"What happened?" Cheryl ask taking a sip of her milkshake. "Cheryl." I let go of her hands. "Can I ask you something?" She nods. "Would you like it if I kept asking you about what happened between you and nick? Honestly." She looks down. "No, but I told you what was bothering me." I bite my lip. "When I was younger, my mom and I were walking home from school and someone mugged and raped her. and I know! I shouldn't be bothered by it! But I love my mom more than anything in the world and the older I got I realized what really happened. I'm just afraid that I'm gonna get that far with- with s-some-someone and- a-a-a-and-." She stops me. "Toni calm down! You're doing a your nervous stutter thing. You don't need to go any further. You have every right to be traumatized by that." I sit back. "D-d-do do do y-you s-see w-w-w-w-why why I-I w-would be this this c-closed ab-about this?" She gets up, sits next to me and cups my cheeks. "Hey you're ok." She whispers. I break down crying and Cheryl hugs me. "Hey everything is ok." She rubs my back. "I'm sorry." I pull away. "I'm sorry." I whisper again. "I'm really sorry. I have to go." She let's me out as I walk to my truck. "Toni!" I turn around. "I'll talk to you later."

"Beer?" Sweet Pea offers. "No. I'm good." I sit up. "Do you have anymore edibles?" I ask quietly. "Yeah. Let me grab some." He runs upstairs. I take a deep breath. "Here. I have gummy bears, cookies and brownies!" I shrug. "Which ever will make me feel numb." He starts to hand me one. "Cheryl can't know." I whisper. "Yeah, of course. Just don't let me get attached and go through another withdrawal." He nods. "Of course bro." I take the gummy bear.