I apparently had this "bestfriend" whom I just met last June1 on a Church called "Destiny". well at first i admitted i liked him during the first week, and he said it was ok. the way i said it was like "imma leave you cause it's not right for a guy to like another guy" but since he had trauma with losing friends, he let me stayed and made me feel that its alright and its not a big deal to him cause he already had experienced this for like a million times already, i mean like, some other boys already had a crush on him and stuffs. then weeks past and we even got closer. and there came a time when i wanted to kiss him and i found out he had already kissed a dozen of people during a dare game and there were guys too, at first it broke my heart cause first kisses are big deal to me, but i asked him if I could also kiss him and he said it was ok, so then we planned to go out, hang on a bar then after we'd kiss. and it actually happened! we've kissed for like 5 times! and it was indeed the best time of my life! imaging the person you liked kissed you! and not just some silly quick kiss, but a torrid kiss! and i think he seemed to like it, then days passed an he would go to my place, hang out, watch movies, etc. well i stopped going to school for a year actually because of financial problem since my mom just died on February that same year. well he'd go straight to my place cause he's not that cool with all of his friends at school. cause of all the boys who had a crush on him and stuffs, that kinda made his image ruined. So I basically became his real and only bestfriend, times passed and i would force him to kiss me, at first he wouldn't but later on he'd just seem to like it. So that apparently happened for like a month wherein we kinda like became friends with benefits. but then there came this month where those people from Destiny tried to invite us to join the Encounter, which is a three day stay at this certain place with everything about God being preached and everything. I was convinced to join, while this guy i was telling you about wouldn't so I called him right away and i had convinced him to join. that day before going to the Encounter, he went to my place and we then kissed, like usual. But we promised it would be the last time we'll be doing it. so then on, to make it short, the Encounter had ended. that day when we will be going home we talked and he said, we cant be in a relationship anymore (cause a week or so, i was courting him and he agreed about it. that i could court him and stuff). that really broke my heart and days passed we were like in a drama series that we'd fought and stuffs, but we would just reconcile cause we just couldn't leave each other. then I accepted his decision, then i asked him to be my bestfriend then he also agreed despite the fact that he had issues with bestfriends before. So then after that we became much closer but at the same time fight, but the kissing thing kinda raised to the next level! we would get naked and stuffs, that had happened for like a dozen times! at first he would refuse but later on he'd like it. Until this September 17 came, we fought over something, and i think he really got pissed off because of all the fighting and the forcing thing that has been happening. He then went to a tour which has to be 6 days. then during the tour i knew he wouldn't be happy there cause those people he's with isn't really that close to him because of the guys-liking-him kinda stuff. because of the fight we had i think made him finally realize i'm not the right person he'd hang with/bestfriend. So until now he wouldn't talk to me cause he thinks I'm the worst decision he'd ever made. :((
