You said it would be ok. Then you left and it wasn't, even after you promised me it would be. Everything was different with you. I may not have been your first for anything, but you were my first real relationship.
I guess why i'm writing this letter is because it's all the things i wish i had the courage to really say to you.
Sometimes just sitting there, the littelest memory will hit me, and it takes my breath away. The way i hid under the blanket on the couch from you, then you came and layed down with me ten extra minutes before you took me home, even though we both knew we'd get in trouble.
The way you would run your thumb across mine when we were holding hands, or how you'd peek at me while you were driving.
With you i was confident and comfortable. Suddenly i wasn't just a toy, and you weren't just another boy. You weren't flirting with me for a day or two, to only drop me and never talk to me again. You realy meant something to me, and before i knew it was happening; i fell in love with you.
There are so many thing i ever got the chance to tell you, and now i'm left to wonder what you might say or think.
For he summer, i had the chance to go stay with my cousin so we could spend some time together. But like other thing, i was scared and didn't tell you., then before i blinked, you were gone, we were over, and i was left to move on.
Now that you're gone, my confidence is too, and it's really hard to believe in myself anymore. There will be someone out there who will be more suitable for you, and when you find her if she loves you like i did, don't let her go.
All my love; Sarah.
