negligencia • neglect ;
to fail to care of properly .
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part 1 :b
nothing's worse than to have your friends neglect you. it's like your heart is being crushed but, no one notices, or you being in harms way and no one comes to help you.
today, my friends, esperanza and jade, and esperanza's friend lyrical were all in the cafeteria and usually we all sit at a table which is; me, esperanza, jade, lyrical and jade's bf micheal. so, today micheal was sick so he didn't come to school.
& so, i have another friend named lia(lee-ah) , and she's super smol and super nice. so, i sat at a table (empty table) with just lia. so, i tell lia about how i don't want anymore friends and stuff like that. so, we all walk back to class after lunch since lunch is like 15 minutes (which is the shortest 15 fucking minutes in my life) so, everytime i come back.
esperanza, lyrical and jade were all standing by the wall and at this point, everyone from a lunch are "going" to class but they all talk to much.
so, i'm like "guys, i might be moving" and they didn't hear anything and i just paused and i didn't say anything. and while they weren't paying attention, paying attention to other people and i'm like "yeah, so i might be moving and i might be going to northview high school" and no one heard anything.
and i got upset because i'm tired of people not listening to me, because everybody wants me to listen to them but they never listen to me. AND THAT FUCKING SUCKS like it makes me so upset because the only person that listens is lia. but, if i say something bad then they all want the spotlight to be on me.
like idc, if nobody else listens to me but when my friends don't listen, it fucking hurts because " i tell them something and they don't listen, and then when something bad happens, they want to sit and boo hoo and cry or get upset"
and i tell them, (that's why it's in quotation) and they are just like "oh" or "mh" or "yeah". BUT THEY ARENT FUCKING LISTENING.
and people are always like "she this" and "she that" but, it's like bitch you're a fucking outsider, and your ass , bald headed ass doesn't even know what's going on, you fucking ass hat.
moving on,
so, i'm just standing there upset and here comes esperanza's ass and she touched my hair and i fucking moved away because i'm not w the shits and i'm like "don't touch me".
she honestly idk she did this weird thing and her ass idk.
so, since me & jade have 3rd period together she was like asking me what's wrong and stuff and i'm like 😑😒, nothings wrong but i just didn't respond. anyways, i know most of you won't read this book but bish, i need a fucking friend, since i have like 2.
☹️ .
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Chapter 1, Part 1
published: 09.04.19
date this happened: today, 09.04.19
