Hey👋 My name is Chloe Elizabeth Jayne Brooks, I'm 20 and I'm from Brighton. As a kid I was never really popular, saying that I only had one friend Tristan. Nowadays most would probably recognise him as being the drummer for The Vamps. When we were younger we'd do everything together, that was until he moved to Exeter with his family when we were 11, thats when the bullying started. My only outlet was YouTube and it had been for years, up until I was 15, i had some really complicated family problems, so I had to stop making youtube videos, all of that is sorted now, and i've wanted to carry on with youtube again, because it really did make me happy.
I met some amazing people through youtube, and I wouldn't change the experience for the world.
Today I was attending amity fest in Brighton, as nothing more than a guest. My niece had turned 14 today and i bought her tickets a d she asked me to come, no one knew about my youtube so hopefully no one would recognise me.
I picked her up and we headed to the venue. I secretly booked her the VIP tickets so she could go backstage and hang out with some YouTubers, because I knew how much of a dream it was for her.
The show started and the man introduced: ThatcherJoe, Zoella, Caspar Lee, Tanya Burr, Jim Chapman, Sprinkle Of Glitter, Marcus Butler, Naomi Smart and Pointless Blog. The show was great and I was beyond proud of everyone because i'd known them all through YouTube and i filmed collabs with Zoe, Joe, Louise and Marcus.
After the show had finished we went to a room where everyone was, I was so nervous, i really didn't want anyone to notice me, because that would raise A LOT of questions back home with my family.
We all had some meet and greet time, Rose (my niece) and I went around all of the youtubers and had selfies and a chat, i wasn't noticed luckily. Joe was the last person we met:
Joe: "Hey! I'm Joe you are?"
Rose: "Hey, I'm Rose, this is my aunty C...."
Me: " Chloe" I interrupted
Joe: " Nice to meet you both, don't I know you... Chloe?" He asked
Shit! He knew it was me
Me:" No?" I sounded confused
Joe: "Sorry my mistake, nice to meet you anyway"
Phew
The rest of the few hours we spent with the youtubers, Rose spent making friends with the same interests as her, whist I sat in the corner.
"Chloe Elizabeth Jayne Brooks eh?" A voice asked
I soon established it was Joe
Me: " Huh? I don't understand?" I asked confused
Joe:" Don't act dumb with me Chlo, I know it's you we all did!"
Me:" Oh"
Joe: "Why aren't you doing YouTube anymore Chlo? You were almost at 1mill, why haven't you contacted any of us for so long? We all miss you!"
I began explaining:
Me: " Well when I turned 15, I began having panic attacks and I figured I ha aniexty, I was having family troubles too. I didn't want to pester you guys with my 'problems' eventually I gave up on youtube because it all became too much to handle, my anxiety was getting really bad, and my family was at breaking point, so I decided i wanted a new start, away from Youtube, i told everyone i was only taking a break, but that break has been almost 6 years long Joe, I wanted to come back to youtube, i've left so much behind, i just don't think people will forgive me for just leaving them hanging like that."
Joe: "Don't ever make yourself feel like that Chlo, everyone is behind you, the youtube community misses you like hell! If you decide you want to do youtube again, seriously like before, you have my number it hasn't changed, we all love you Chlo"
We chatted for a while after about life etc... He was talking about him moving out, to London, he said he was looking at getting flat mates too. It made me realise how much I missed the youtube community, i really do want it all back...
