In The Arms Of A Psycho [COMPLETED]

Kabanata 16

Kabanata 16

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"You can't leave without explaining to me what happened. Damn it! I feel like an asshole here."

I turned to his direction and look at him in the eyes, feeling the emotion rushing in my veins, damn anger.

Ramdam ko ang galit ko, it's like even if someone will be murdered in front of me, I will actually be happy. Na sa galit ko, kaya ko na ring pumatay, gaya ng ginawa niya, at ng tatay ko. Sa sobrang galit ko, kaya ko siyang sungalngalin ngayon, tapos pugutan ng ulo, iluto at kainin...sobrang galit ako, pero hindi ko mapapalagpas kung gaano ako kamangha na makita siyang gwapo parin kahit mukhang problemado na. Sobrang galit ako, pero mukhang marupok parin.

"You're an asshole! There's no question with that! And I don't want to share my past with an asshole like you!" I said, voice filled with anger.

The truth is, I'm having a hard time handling my emotions, I can be angry, then suddenly sweet, then actually murderous, then back to angry. I don't know why my emotions are being so messed up, maybe because of how Neon can bring out different feelings inside me, or perhaps, it's just the lack of management in emotions, or maybe my pregnancy. Or maybe all of it.

"Fine, whatever, now that I'm a fucking asshole, what are you gonna do? Kill me? You're angry right? Are you not gonna use handcuffs and punish me? Are you not gonna leave?" He siad with arrogance in his voice. Damn boy, damn hot. But no, not working, I still have my brains with the right pieces, at the right places. And he's clearly making fun of me.

Hindi nakakatuwa.

"Well, I am not like you, I will not do that." I saw how his face fell, the arrogance stripped off from his face.

"So you really think I kill? "

"Well, yes," I said "I clearly smell, saw the corpse inside that room." Ikinumpas ko ang aking kamay at tinuro ang kuwarto.

Nangunot ang kaniyang noo, ang mga kilay ay halos magdugtong na.

"What?"

"Oh, really? You're using that word to me? As if there's nothing you're keeping? As if  you're not aware what that room contains? Well, I know your secret, at kinasusuklaman ko 'yon. "

"I don't know what secret you're talking about. All I know is that I am not hiding any corpse inside my house, because I don't kill. I am not like your father."

"What-the-fuck-ever. Still, you're an asshole." Now that I'm angry, seems like my mouth have its own life. I know, I have a bad habit of saying words I don't think I'll even say when I'm sane. But that's how it is, when you are angry, for me, you intend to do or say stupid things. And it just sucks because right at the moment, you can't even think about what will be consequences of the things you've said.

"Yes, fine, I'm an asshole, but can't we just talk this over with? Can't we just settle everything?"

"Ayan! Ikaw na rin ang nagsabi, talk this over with? E di ba nga ikaw 'tong 'di ako pinapansin? 'Di ba nga ikaw tong biglang cold? Ano ha? Psycho!" Mapang-uyam kong sinabi. I don't know, just feel like being a witch right now.

Ngumisi ako ng makita ang ekspresyon niya, "I. Am. Not. A. Psycho." Madiin bawat bigkas, halata ang pagkagigil. Umiigting ang panga, ang ngalit ng kaniyang mga ngipin ay mas nagbibigay depina sa kaniyang panga. 

Biglang uminit ang temperatura.

"Bakit ba? An insane person wouldn't admit he's insane." Umirap ako, the mood suddenly changed when he chuckled. Imbes na mas magalit, hindi ko alam kung bakit natuwa ako nang marinig ang kaniyang tawa.