Love is like a drug. You start small until soon enough, you're in over your head. Why is it like this? Why would someone create such a device, a disease, that could bring someone hapiness and destroy it at the same time? Why does it have to be fleeting? For, as much as we tried, we seemed destined to fall apart. Like leaves on a tree we fell, but as soon as we hit the ground we scattered, like the pieces of my heart as you left. And as I slowly moved on and found a way to pick up the pieces, you were there. God you left me breatheless. It was as if the oxygen left as you entered, much like my attention on anything else. And although I've tried to move on, Ive found myself still drawn to you. I cant leave without a hug; one last scent of you. My phone still has pictures of you, of us. I feel drawn to you, to what we had. Could we ever get it back? I feel as though Im being nostalgic, for our relationship wasnt perfect. But thats what made it special, what made it real. And although I was dating someone else, someone I thought would get me over you, it didnt work. My mind constantly wanders to you. Why must you make it so hard? One of my favorite quotes is, "Why do we fall, so we can learn to pick ourselves up." I've tend to live every disappointment, every bad thing in my life, by this quote. But why are you the exception? Why does my body, my heart, want go through everything all over again? Am I insane? Insanity is said to be doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. But what if I dont want a different result? What if I just want you?
