a/n: warning... smut heavy. 🔞
it's friday, which means after her noon class, seulgi gets bubble tea with seungwan and they gossip about their weeks' events. today, seungwan is telling seulgi about the fight she had with her boyfriend mark, and how he's taking her out to the countryside this weekend to make up for it. seungwan seems happy, so seulgi's happy too. "so...are you going to do it?" seulgi questions, giggling behind her hand. she feels like a teenager asking such a question and watching seungwan's cheeks flush bright red. "it'd be your first time with him, right?"
"about that..." seungwan seems to turn even brighter, and it has seulgi giggling harder.
"when were you going to tell me??"
"it's only been a few weeks, and i was going to tell you but i don't know... it slipped my mind?"
"was it not good?"
"no, it was great! perfect..." seungwan sighs, getting a dreamy look in her eyes, the corners of her lips turning up towards the ceiling.
"wish i could relate."
"jaebeom not good in bed?" seungwan gasps, "but... he looks like he'd know what he was doing."
"i haven't had sex with him yet." seulgi admits, "or well... he hasn't touched me that way yet, but based off of past experiences with exes... i'm keeping my expectations low."
seulgi has a confession. for the past two years that she's been sexually active, she's only had an orgasm three times... and all three were from solo performances when she was bored and turned to porn. it's not to say that her partners didn't know what they were doing... it felt good with them, it just wasn't ever good enough. she started faking it because it's easier to do that than to embarrass them and admit that you didn't come.
so... she's been afraid to have sex with her current boyfriend because of it...and it's been really hard. jaebeom sparks something within her, has her heart leaping out of her chest with simple "good morning" texts. she thinks about him all day and all night. it's safe to say she's in love, though they're only five months into their relationship, but they're four years into friendship. there's been nights, when kisses heat up and groping each other over clothing isn't good enough. she usually weasels her way out of it, offers to blow him or use her hands on him, declining his offers to return the favor. she knows she can't live the rest of her life like this... but she's not sure how to have the conversation.
"i think you should give it a chance, you could be missing out." seungwan begins, "i mean... sex with mark is a lot better than any with my ex, but i also think that's because i feel stronger about mark too. i know you're head over heels for jaebeom... so maybe that'll automatically make it better?"
"it's not about it not feeling good, it's about crossing the finish line." seulgi explains, "i don't understand why i just can't... you know."
"not all women can get off from penetration alone. some need help... you could also speak up, seulgi. if it's not good enough, tell them! boys like being bossed around in bed."
"me? bossing jaebeom around? that's funny."
"it doesn't hurt to try? you could unlock a deeper relationship with him... why not call him up and go out on a date tonight? set the mood." seungwan encourages, "every female deserves a good orgasm, that means you do too."
jaebeom has his internship on fridays, so he agrees to meet seulgi at the restaurant directly for their dinner date. she wants seafood, so they go out for sashimi. jaebeom's waiting for her outside the restaurant when she arrives, and she runs over to him, throwing her arms around his neck and hugging him tight. he looks casual in his jeans, white hoodie, green bomber and baseball cap... but don't get her wrong, it's a good look. a really good look. she welcomes the soft kisses he presses against her hair as they wait to be seated, tells him about her day while he tells her about his.
