Dear Bria [z.m.]

Twelve: Soon?

"All I can say here is..." There's a pause, "I'll see you soon, don't worry"

"I won't tell the date but I'll see you both soon" That reply made me widen my eyes and be mad for I don't know what reason but deep inside I can't wait for that 'See you soon.' 

My mind thought of barging in on Louis' room but me being a good friend I just let it pass. I just walk past his room and walk inside my own room but I can still hear them talking.  Through Louis helped Zayn on courting me before, they became bestfriends. Who would've thought that a fashion designer and an avid fan of mine will be so close?

When I'm finally flopped on my bed, I can't help but wonder. Is leaving my career in LA worth it? Does migrating here in Athens can make me feel better without my essential things that I've been used to back home?

Other side of my brain battles with 'Yes, you've done the right thing' 'You need to move on from your past life' 'You need to find your new self.' 

My eyes divert to the somewhat burned box on the top of the desk. How can I move on if I keep on reading and reminiscing my perfect life before? Should I stop and start to move on with my life?

I ignored my subconscious mind and pick the next letter in the box.

I looked at the words scribbled on the folded paper which says 'CXDCCCXIII.' I converted it to numbers and i'm right, this was when I said 'yes' to him for being his girlfriend after three months of courting but for him after years of courting me because he's been there since like the beginning of my everything. 

11.08.13

8th November 2013 was the beginning of Zayn and I's journey of being a couple.

He didn't write a letter for three months. Why though?

 November 8, 2013

10000 Southwoods Boulevard, Long Beach, California

Long Beach, California

Dear Bree,

You don't know how happy and feverish I am today because you finally said 'yes' to me! You're officially my girlfriend! I can't believe that months ago I wrote a letter which I told you that I wonder will you ever be mine? And now just thinking it all back, it all seemed like a dream.  You're probably laughing at me right now cause of the official girlfriend thing. I know were not fifteen year olds but calling you my girlfriend is what I wanted to do ever since I laid my eye on you, my aphrodite.

What did we even do today? Oh yes. As an official boyfriend of yours I took you to a very nice place were there's only few people nowadays. I know how much you love penguins and you want to pet one. But darling, penguins are wild animals so I can't give it to you that's why I brought you to them. 

 I took you to one of the biggest petting zoo of penguins in America. I was planning to rent the whole place but unfortuantely I don't have that amount of money to rent it. Before we went there, you were annoying me where the hell am I taking you but darling, I want it to be a surprised until we get there.

"Just give me a hint! Tell me where are we going." You squinted your eyes and chuckled while I'm driving. 

"Okay. I'll give you a hint. Hmmm.." 

"Don't you hmmmm me. Come on Zayn, just tell me!" 

I'm not going to tell you my princess even if you're so damn cute. 

"I told you I'm going to give you a hint!" 

"Will that help?" 

"If you're smart enough, you'll probably get it."  And I watch as you're arms folded and you pursed your lips like a little kid who didn't have any toy.