SHAMELESS.

LETTER

to my future boyfriend/girlfriend,

hi, my name is nathaniel. i dont like spiders that much and i absolutely love eating homemade pasta. my favorite shows consist of how i met your mother and the full house, it's hard to stop rewatching each season over and over again. i grew up in a complicated household, one with an abusive father and the other a loving mother fighting for her life. then there are my two younger sisters, abigail and savannah, my favorite little munchkins. i currently live with my grandparents from my mother's side, a real cute couple who's love i aspire to have with someone else one day.

i am a poet and a hopeless romantic who hopes can live out the romantic romcom that plays within my head. if it's about you, then i think about you every single second of the day. if it's about you, then you're so god damn special to me. if it's about you, then i have only dreamt of this day to be able to love you. but please know i am still learning to love myself.

i tend to talk quite loudly at times which screams i am italian and i sometimes have unruly hair that doesn't stay in place after rolling out of bed. also, i have a big heart that tend to love people, even the ones i shouldn't. and i hope that one day, i am able to find you. we can grow as people, stronger and better alongside together. i don't want to see life with darkness and uncertainty anymore, with you it will be all about love. one day, i hope for a 100/100 relationship, not just 50/50. when i look into your beautiful eyes, i can only pray you'll be able to see the adoration i hold for you in the depths of my hazel eyes.

my promise to you is to love you and support you, every step of the way. we may have our fair share of arguments but that won't make me love you any less. i may tease you at times but that's only because i am your idiot, a boy hopelessly in all of you. i only hope my arms can become your home and you'll feel safe within my embrace. yes, i may mess up at times but i will do my best to grow and learn from those mistakes. all i want is to be the best version of myself i can be for you. you won't ever have to change for me. every flaw, every imperfection, all the little things you hate about yourself will be the things i adore the most about you.

i hope you'll enjoy the times when we drive around in the car, singing disney songs from the tops of our lungs. i hope you'll enjoy the times when i cuddle into you, fingers brushing through your hair, all because i long for your touch. i hope you'll enjoy the times i cook for you, thanking god my italian ancestors knew what they were doing when it came down to food. and i hope you'll enjoy the times when i kiss you and whisper into your ear about how much i love you. those three words "i love you" aren't used quite lightly when it comes to me. so, just know when i tell that to you, i mean it with every ounce of feeling inside of me.

i only ask one thing from you in return, please don't break my heart.