Pull Me Closer

Chapter One (09/12/19)

Hey! I'm Tommy, short for Thomas. I'm 18 years old and I have a pet cat named Snug, short for Captain McSnugglebug. Don't judge me, I was five when I named him.

I'm about five two in height, yes a short little mouse boy, I have braces that I get off after I turn 19...

Right. I don't even want to talk about it.

also, it's just me and my dad living together. It's been that way since I was seven. That's when my mom overdosed on drugs.

I don't remember much about her but I know that I loved her very much.

My dad and I live in New York and I guess it's pretty cool here, I would love to see other places though.

I used to do ballet but dad couldn't afford my classes so I stopped at the age of fifteen, just a couple of years ago.

I've never had my first kiss or lost my virginity. I'm saving that for someone special, whoever that might be.

I'm gay so relationships are kinda hard for me to find especially with a bunch of dumb teens who don't know themselves.

I've had one "boyfriend" if that's what you want to call him. He was an older guy that I met at Starbucks, around twenty-five or twenty-six. It didn't last very long because after knowing him for literally three days he got mad at me and tried to hit me.

I'm already a small guy and I don't need that so I ended it right then and there with him. We never got to kiss, or even hug, and I'm so glad we didn't.

Not gonna lie though, older men are way more attractive to me.

My dad has no idea about all of that and it makes me happy that he doesn't because he would kill him then come home and kill me.

Speaking of my dad, he is not rich at all and never was. I don't mind not being rich because obviously not everyone gets that lucky but I have to give him credit. He gets me stuff when I need it and will occasionally "spoil" me by letting me pick something that I really want out of the store, that's if he is in a good mood though, which isn't very often.

I've never had a phone, or a laptop, or anything like that. Dad just couldn't and still can't afford it.

I don't ask for much and I do everything that I'm told to do.

Oh my gosh, I totally forgot to say but I just graduated from high school. May 17th, 2019. The best class of them all, even though I hated literally everyone.

I'm glad to be out of there.

Anyways, back to what I was saying. I would work to try to help with the money issue that my dad struggles with but I fill out all these applications and no one calls back. I have been trying to get a job for over six months now and nothing is working.

Maybe I'm filling something out wrong but it's not that hard. I know my social, I have an ID, I'm able to work and I have no disabilities that would get in the way of working. I'm good with new people and I'm always nice to a person even if I don't like them.

I hate drama so there wouldn't be any of that but no one wants me.

I'm just about ready to become a stripper to be honest because I need some bank, and I need it fast.

I obviously have no job so I'm a stay at home child. I cook for my dad, clean, go grocery shopping, get him to bed on time, stuff a stay at home mom or dad would do.

Also I don't know how much I can stress this but I'm fucking poor. I'm BROKE!

I shop at goodwill, which is trendy now I guess. I literally used to get made fun of for getting clothes from there but now everyone wants to pull up and get their pick at "vintage" clothes.