OSL2: Shattered Heart of Mistakes

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Chapter 1.

Hindi kalayuan para sa iba, ngunit sobrang layo na nito para saakin. I am so close, yet so far from Him. I nod, serves me right?

Does my decision really made whats best for us?

"Ma'am, do you need something?" I snap back to reality when the Nurse asked me, I shook my head and mouthing 'No'. I don't need something, I barely need someone.

I opened my phone, pagbukas ko palang. Bigla ng tumulo ang mga luha ko, Kelan ba ito mauubos? I am crying every single minute in my life, everytime I remember about them.

"Hi.." Para akong tanga na kinakausap ang aking cellphone na pagbukas ko palang, nakita ko na ang picture ng pamilya ko sa lockscreen ko. I swipe to open my phone, and there..Mas lumakas ang hikbi ko, and it came to the point na nahihirapan na akong humiga dahil sa nababarado narin ng sipon ang aking ilong.

I held my phone, and touched the screen. Pinunasan ko rin ito ng makita ko ang mga luha ko na bumabagsak rito.

"S-sorry..for being weak." I muttered, I shouldn't be talking to my phone. I should say this to Him, not to my phone. I clicked the gallery and chose the photo of a heart that is shattered. I made that my wallpaper.

I closed my eyes, trying to tell myself that everyhing will be okay. I wish, it still can be. Instead of cheering me up, my wallpaper flashed into my mind...not the shattered heart, but it was me and Dave during.....Those memories again.

I don't want to look back. I don't want to remember what happened way back. I don't want to remind myself how I ruined everything. How could I do that?

"I wish...I can turn back time." I muttered again, I grab the tissue inside my pocket and wiped the tears that is falling down from my eyes. Agad ko ring sininga ang sipon ko, para makahinga ako ng maayos.

Napa-upo ako ng ayos ng makita ko ang sapatos ng isang tao sa may bandang paa-nan ko rin. I looked up, and there I saw Jon. He sat beside me and tapped my shoulder. "Are you fine?" He asked me, He is the only person who knows and understands.

"No." I simply answered, I heard him chuckle. "Next time I won't ask an obvious question." He said, I gave him a weak smile.

"Time is must be given to them, well. To Him, He needs it more than they need it." He told me, Umiling ako.

"Nobody needs time. Nobody needs me." I said, It's true. Wala naman talagang may kailangan sakin, like what I said. I AM A NOBODY to them. Yung kasabihan na, 'Time heals pain' or kahit ano pa yang kasabihan na yan tungkol sa tamang panahon. I am sick of that, I gave time and chances having the thought of my family together and forever. Now, I regret things.

"You just have to believe and trust what may happen." He said, napatawa ako not because of happiness. "Believe? That was one of the biggest mistakes I've ever done. Trust? That is one of the most painful thing that I gave." I said.

He just nod. "If that's what you think, I am just remin--" He didn't finish his sentence when I cut him off. "I DONT WANT TO REMEMBER!! I HATE TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT CAUSED ME PAIN!" Napataas ang boses ko, He just let out a sigh. I ran away, again.

I ran as fast as I can, away from the hospital. I hope, running away could also ease the pain. But running away, was the reason why I feel pain.

Funny how my life flows. Its been years, and I am sick of crying and feeling pain. But then again, I will always endure every pain that I could feel just because of Love.

I thought Love is one of the key to find happiness, I thought Love is very powerful that no one could beat it. I was wrong, Love can also be the reason why we feel empty.

I stopped at the park nearby the hospital, when I heard my phone rang. I answered it.

"Hello?" I started, It was Dr.Simbayan of San Lucio Hospital.

["Mrs. Padilla.."] I love hearing those words, I love hearing my name. I love hearing that name. ["Your husband is awake."] Nawala ang ngiti saaking labi, kasabay ng pagpatay ko ng aking cellphone.

I didn't run this time, I walked. Slowly, and hoping that I could not stop. Because I am afraid of what will happen next, after what I've been through as of today. I expect more, next time.

Tumigil ako sa gilid, malayo layo narin sakanila. Alam kong after ng sigawan kanina, They don't want to see me. The doctor is looking for someone, when someone grabbed my hand. It was Mama Karla.

Then again, I asked myself. How? How could I possibly face myself to them? Especially, to the mother of the person I hurt. Despite of everything I did, Why is she nice to me? Ganito na ba ako kasama, am I that undeserving for his son? Napakabait niya, at ng anak niya. Pero ako? I just hurt them. Sinaktan ko sila.

"There you are, Mrs.Padilla." Oh God, How I love to hear someone calling me that. How I wish I could still smile with that thought.

Instead of smiling because of what I heard, I just nod. How could I smile? If I know that name wasn't really for me. Paano ako ngingiti sa mga naririnig ko? Kung ang pangalan na yan ay muntik ng mawala saakin, dahil rin sa kagagawan ko. Please answer me, How?

Guilt. Pano ko tatanggalin yan? Help me, paano mawawala yan?

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Boom panes, Boom boom panes panes. How was it?! Masyado po akong excited the Book 2, kaya pinost ko na agad ito. Pero uyy, Prologue at Chapter 1 muna ang ipopost ko. Next week or kapag natuwa ako, magu-update ako.

Malapit na Sembreak namin, Sa loob ng 2 to 3 days. Makakagawa ako ng dalawang chapter na, draft muna. Hahaha! Well, Hi everyone. I am looking forward for comments and votes :)

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