Incedelic (b.e fanfic)

1. ( i dont remember )

"You can't take someone I love, you always do it, you never let me love. I'm sick of it I'm sick of not being able to love her I can't I can't do it anymore I just can't" I scream/cry in my pillow at 2 in the morning.
It's fine no one can here me and even if they did they probably would not care they say it's for the best. But fuck the best sometimes the worst is what I need.
"You can't love a girl, you can't love at all your too young" my mom would always say that to me, and I'd disagree every time.
Don't forget the  key word there is "would" she always "would" say it to me but now she     doesn't.
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2 weeks later
"Will the defendant please stand up and identify herself" the judge said looking directly in her eyes. The eyes of the person I hate but love at the same time. Those blue eyes. Her blue eyes are what I thrive on. Their like drugs, and oh my how these drugs kill me slowly.
"B-billie eilish sir" she says looking down at the reflection of the camera light that reflects of her silver rings.
"Billie, would you like to tell us why your here?" The judge replied Angrily, her eyes about the redness as her face and hair.
"I don't remember" those words, those three words I did not want to hear, she says. Billie eilish fucking says.
"HOW THE FUCK DO YOU NOT REMEMBER, Y-YOU HURT ME BILLIE I FUCKING LOVED YOU AND YOU HURT ME. YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME BUT YOU LIED, I CANT TRUST YOU BILLIE I JUST CANT" I said with fury and sadness all showing in the pools of water dripping out of my eyes.
" I-I can't, I really can't I'm sorry" she says as they were putting her back in hand cuffs to take her back to her house. Our house.

A/n: what do you guys want the main characters name to be????