H.Y.D.R.A.'s Spider 🕷

Healing

(PETERS POV)

When Bucky finished with his questions, he helps me up and onto the smaller couch in the living room. We were completely alone.
"Peter, I didn't ask you this question, in case it triggered you, but I need to know what the people on the raft did to you. Could you tell me?" I nod and take in a shaky breath. This was gonna really mess me up. More than I am already.
"Just... so, they wanted to pun-punish me for cho-choosing HYDRA, an-and they woul-would either c-c-cut me or beat me or... r... rap...rape me." I sigh. It felt good to get off my chest, but it didn't make it any easier to actually say.
"Peter... I'm so sorry! You shouldn't have had to go through that. But, we need Bruce to check you out. He'll be gentle. I promise I won't leave your side." I just nod and grip his hand as tight as I can, scared he'll leave me.
We slowly walk to the medbay, and he sits me down next to him on a white bouncy bed.
He holds my hand, and hugs me close, as Bruce moves into the room.
"Hey Peter" he spoke softly "I just need to check you over for any injuries."
I nod and shift so I'm more comfortable.
He shuffles toward me with some clear blue gloves on his gentle hands.
"I'm gonna start with your head and face."
He feels around my hairline and behind my ears. He shines a light in my eyes and I wince. He apologised but didn't stop. He touches my broken nose and I turn away.
"Oh, sorry buddy. Your advanced healing has healed your nose wrong. I need to reset it, and it's gonna hurt like hell. Bucky, you need to hold him still"
I turn to Bruce again, and he holds my nose at the sides.
"Ready?" I nod and Bucky puts his arm firmly round my waist.
"1.....2.....3" CRACK!
And that was the first time I got my nose reset. And let me tell you, it hurt like fuck.
"Well done Peter, I'm pretty sure Clint would have cried! Can I move on?" I nod and try not to flinch too much when he touched my neck. I did anyway. Don't show weakness, spider. No! Not now. No no no!
(Flashback)
I'm in the experimentation room on the Raft. I fight weakly as I get strapped to a metal table, arms by my side and leave apart. No no! Anything but this! My head guard looms over me, and grins evily as he tugs down my pants and boxers. I scream and cry as he does the unspeakable.
"Stop him. Don't let him scream." He backs at the others who watch idly by.
A man steps forward and squeezes my neck, limiting my air supply and stopping my screams. He smiles too.
"-ter PETER! It's not real, buddy. Your here, with me, with Bucky." I snap out of my flashback and drag myself away from any physical contact by curling in on myself.
I lift my head and see Bucky sitting beside my with a sad look on his face and a hand reaching out to help me.
"Don't touch me, please." I squeak out, just keeping the tears in. He retracts his hand, nodding in understanding.
"Alright peter, but you need to breathe. In............... And out. That's it." He says, helping me from a distance.
Once I calm down, I reach out to him. I miss his hugs.
"You wanna cuddle?" I nod
He shuffles over and wraps my in a hug.
"What happened bud? Bruce just had to check your throat."
I stutter my answer quietly to Bucky.
"M-memo-memory." I cuddle closer as Bruce comes to my bedside again. He seems to be wary he'll hurt me. He speaks softly.
"Hey Pete, can I finish my checkup? Just the torso, okay?" He rests his hand on the rail of the bed.
I nod my head and sit up, scared of what might happen if I say no.
He checks my lungs and heart, which are fine, before he gets to my ribs.
"Ah!" I scream out in pain as he feels around my very broken ribs.
He rushes to recover. "Sorry Peter, I didn't know you had broken ribs?!"
I shook my head unable to speak. Tears were making quick work of running down my face, dripping into the papery covers. Bruce runs around while Bucky strokes me softly with his hand and whispers how proud he is of me into my ear. That's a nice lie. I know there's nothing to be proud of.
"So, peter, I need to reset one rib, the rest are practically healed. Hold on tightly, Bucky." He warns.
I snuggle into Buckys shoulder and quick as a flash, the rib snaps into place again.
I muffle a scream into my fist, making sure Bruce doesn't feel guilty for hurting me.
"So brave." Bucky whispers as I begin to calm down.
Bruce clears me to go, as long as I take it easy, and I begin to feel sleepy.
I lie back in the pillows but don't fall asleep just yet.
Bucky turns to me and swiftly picks me up, before heading to the stairs. I panic.
"Wh-Where are w-we going?" I stutter and he smiles kindly.
By the time he answers I'm almost asleep again.
"My room, then we can keep each other safe from nightmares." Was his simple reply.
I nod firefly and soon feel a soft surface under me. Cosy covers are pulled over me and Bucky slips in next to me.
"Don' leave" I murmur
I hear him smile when he says
"Never"