hi im really sad :)

9/11/19

Cried in the bathroom today.

Not surprising we've all done it.

The reason for it is so stupid honestly.

I finally managed to sneak off to the LGBTQ+ club in my school with two of my friends.

I was silently panicing cause well there was a lot of people and my mom could get me at any second. Yeah, didn't tell my mom like every teen.

Ha.

A group of people I've maybe seen once is very stressful for me. Theres so many if them with such different opions and personalities.

With me being the new one I got a lot of unwanted attention that wasn't nice.

When introducing myself right after one of the staff stood up and gave a lecture to us. They were well passively direcrting it at me to where I could tell he meant it about me.

I know its stupid but with the anxeity I already had built up added on by that I was on the brink of tears.

I excused myself. By the time I reached that bathroom I was already crying and hyperventilating.

I cried and stuggled to control my breathing for the rest of the time the club went on.

Didn't even realized I left my backpack there like a stupid bitch until I was halfway home.

So yeah. Btw I got my backpack the next day so thats good I guess.