drugs and the internet

problem 1: drugs

People say that love is like a drug. For some people, love, means drugs. I don't blame them they might have their problems, I even have thought of ending it, life, because I don't have something to live for, people are bad, rude and life isn't fair. They just want to see you sad, confused and lost. But I'll keep myself alive for a little longer just to prove them that they can't always get me down. I try to smile all the time even if I'm faking, I just don't want people to see how depressed and lost I am. I can't blame someone about all this sadness and depression, no one else, but drugs and the internet.

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Ughh. High school. A place full of spoiled teens. I have to deal with all those shitty faces every morning, every day for a whole year. I'm not popular kid or a nerd, I'm known as the weird one. The one that never talks to anyone, sits in the back of the classroom, always listens to sad music, has only one friend that doesn't talk too much to. His name is Kevin, he's not really my friend he's just a guy that doesn't suck like the others and actually talks to me sometimes. He's quite popular, he's on the lacrosse team. Every other teen here is just fucking annoying.

But let's get to our topic: drugs

Drugs. What a addiction. For the majority of the world's population drugs are people's best friend. In my school you'll find a lot of teen dealers every now and then walking around selling drugs. I've got used to students selling me those stuff, I don't bye them. I don't do drugs, I've tried it before but I stopped it once I started. I only smoke sometimes, not every day, only when I'm sad or angry. I'm not a bad person, I just have problems. At school, at home. My parents had gotten a divorce when I was two years old and I live with my mum. I don't know where my dad is or if he is alive but I'd like to meet him. My mum is alcoholic, she is a mess and I can't do nothing about that, sometimes she even yells at me for no reason just because she's drunk. She only sleeps, eats, drinks and screams. Sometimes I just wish I was dead or in a another country living a better life. She also does drugs. They have destroyed her. Drugs may be a good distraction for a while but by the time they'll be an addiction that will ruin your life.

~Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels
I drawn it with a drink and out of date description pills~

"Hey! Hey! Are you even listening to me mate?"
Oh and yeah, this was me listening to another sad song and Kevin not getting my attention for one more time.

"Yeah hi, I'm listening now." I said
"Thomas, were you listening to sad songs again?" Oh and my name is Thomas.
"Is that a problem?"
"Come on, come sit with us at lunch, we can hang out after school!" Kevin said
"No I'm not in the mood." I'm never in the mood.
"You are never in the mood!" Exactly Kevin, now go.
"Sarah Jonshon will be there! She is the hottest girl in the school!" Kevin is still trying to make my go with him and his mates? Well, the answer is still no.

"I don't care. She is not that hot anyway. She is  a rude, spoilled, fake, blonde bitch that the only thing she actually cares about is her 'perfect' hair. I don't know why y'all like her so much."
Yes, this is her, fake, a nasty plastic Barbie doll.
"Are you sure you don't like her? Like, come to dude! She is the hottest!" Kevin said.
"I'm sure that I don't like her at all."
"You don't like anyone here! You are in high school! Make friends, find a girlfriend, go to parties!" Is he actually joking?! No one likes me her, I'm never invited to parties. Even if I was, I wouldn't go. Everyone is drunk and it's too noisy.

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Alright, I'm gonna go, I have lac practice. See ya later!" Kevin said and left.
Kevin is right, I need some friends! Well I'll make some when people stop being assholes and actually start to care about the stuff that happen around them.

And maybe I'll even get a girlfriend! When I find a girl that hasn't done a plastic surgery just to make her butt, boobs and lips to look bigger or isn't a a basic white girl.