I smile and sit here waiting for it to get better but what if it's not going to what if I'm waiting for the big nothing, what if my dreams don't come true like you say they will aren't I better to give up now and not look back every day on the mistakes I've made on the problems I've caused aren't I better off dead never disturbing anyone ever again. what if my only option is to give up to say screw it and not care anymore to just be happy and gone where no one will ever see me again. I love my life and those in it who actually care but I'm not good enough for them and I know they know it to and it wont be long until I'm standing here all alone with no one left who cares with no one left who wants me, until i truly now it's time to give up so why don't i just go through with it now and never look back never have to look back never give a care in the world to those who don't care about me just say goodbye I love you and I'm out never to be seen again never to be worried about again because I'm no longer there for them to worry or care aboutif I left now what's left to say, I've said it all from my first words to swears to many others I try every day to hold on and to push forward into the next day and trying to pass my school days by I've tried to get a job and help my family out of there money problems I've tried everythingbut I've lost both best friends I called sisters and I know I'll lose him to the one I love the one who can save me from always feeling this he will leave to then what will I be left with no one and nothing just a compelling want to give up and no longer be here maybe that's for the best maybe I should just give up now Good-Bye
