ALI

HeartBroken

'I am sorry. For everything I have done. I never meant to hurt you, I never meant to break you. I want you to know, there is more to me than you thought, that I am not just a player in High School who gets all the girls. The one thing I only ever wanted was the girl for me, and that was you, is you. Honestly, people change, and you are the reason I did. Where would I be without you? No where. What would i do without you? Nothing. You are the other half of my heart, and without you I just don't feel the same. Seeing you hurt, broke my own heart. Watching your heart break into a million peices from the words thrown at you and the physical abuse you faced each day. I was never there for you, to help you. You fell for me, and I wasn't there to catch you. It took me until now, when you are gone, to realize I miss you. To realize I need you. To realize I love you. You are my world, my universe, my everything. I don't want to feel this way, but I deserve it, to be treated like a looser, like an ass. Hearing others blame this on me. I broke you each day, but you still loved me with every broken peice. I was broken until you came along, you put my heart back together, and I used you, and broke your heart. I used my sadness to bring you down, to higher the level of my confidence. Meeting you was a beautiful tragedy. I promise, I will love you, Forever & Always. Goodbye Ali, good luck in paradise love.' I spoke and wiped the falling tears from my blue eyes. I walked away from your grave stone, and sat on a bench. This was my fault, your death. You were just sitting in the passenger seat asleep, and I screwed up. I looked over at you, sleeping like an angel, but once I faced back, bright headlights shined through the windows, and just like that, you were gone. The car spun, your eyes had opened in a shock and scared way, you reached for my hand, gripping onto mine tightly. Only a while later I awoke in an ambulance, with you laying beside me. Blood dripped down your head, and I realized you weren't breathing. I began to scream in shock, and the doctors tried calming me down. I knew you were gone, and I didn't mean for this to happen. You were everything I ever wanted, I didn't want to loose you. Atleast I still have the memories.

I walked away from Alis grave stone, and sat in my car. I leaned my head against the wheel and sobbed in my hands. She was gone, and I knew that I would never get her back. Why did I have to be so stupid? Why do I always ruin everything?

I wiped my eyes and drove to Camerons house. Him and Ali were best friends, along with Matthew and Taylor, so they understand how I feel un like the others, though they were friends with Ali. Ali was so loveable, so amazing, so beautiful. I miss you so much, more than you know.

I finally arrived at Camerons house, and entered. I heard crying, and that's when I heard glass shatter, I ran upstairs, and saw Cameron rocking himself back and forth in a ball with glass shattered around his body. He was sobbing, and his eyes were puffy and red. I stepped towards him and he looked up. His face had a cut on it from the glass. I walked towards him and sat down beside him.

That's when I noticed he was holding a letter in his hand that was signed from Ali, and then I noticed a box full of letters from Ali.

Why was Ali writing letters to Cameron? And how? Some where even adressed to him only a month ago. She's been dead for a year already.