nine seconds [J9 | COMPLETED]

four seconds

I'm a dumbass. I'm a fool. A cruel person. A bad earthling. How could I act without even thinking?

That night was a nightmare. A very horrible scene I made.

I kissed Nine and he pushed me causing me to fall from the bed. His face was full of terror as if he was betrayed by someone he called a best friend.

I couldn't forget the face me made. He was disappointed and sad and terrified.

That night I thought it was a dream come true but it was only a dream come true to me. On his side, it was a nightmare.

He hurried to collect all his things and without words he left.

I'm a dumbass.

I couldn't sleep and eat well and it's been three days since that night.

I was inside the class but my mind is somewhere, nowhere to be found.

After all the classes I went straight to the engineering building hoping to see Nine.

There's a huge black of bag under my eyes and I was strangely sweating so hard. The heat was making me feel irritated and thirsty.

I decided to buy a bottled water on the cafeteria and to my surprise I saw him. A lump formed on my throat and my chest was wilding.

I know I should apologize for acting so sudden. For kissing him again. I know he's probably pissed about me that he won't answer my calls or text back to my messages.

He saw me and our eyes met for a second. I know in that moment and time he knew I was at their department for him.

I was about to move my feet and walk towards him when a guy approached him. The guy was tall, maybe the same height as me, he was smiling from ear to ear while talking to Nine.

And Nine was smiling back at him ignoring the fact that I exist.

My knees were melting. I went weak and I felt like I was carrying all the burdens of the world. My heart was aching and it saddens me more to see him smiling to someone not me.

I turned my back, took a long deep breath, and everything went black.

The next thing I knew, I was down on the floor covered with sweat and jealousy.

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I woke up hearing a familiar voice and realizing I was inside an unfamiliar room.

"Joong... "

It was Nine, holding my hands, gripping them tightly. I couldn't control myself. When I saw him, my view was blurry and my eyes were shedding tears.

"I'm... Sorry, Nine..." I struggled to speak properly and to enunciate every words I wanted to say. I want him to forgive me and get back to the way we used to be. I know I did him wrong and this feeling I have for him is not appropriate.

He was staring at me with those sparkling eyes. I wanted to tell him how sorry I was and I miss him. I wanted to kiss him again or embrace him but I stopped myself from doing so because I don't want to hurt him and I don't want him to ignore me once more.

We were alone in the Nurse's Office and all I could see from the background was white.

Nine reached for my face searching all the traces of tears to wipe them away.

He then smiled.

That smile I miss.
That smile I want to see every second.

"I'm sorry. I left." He said. Speaking so softly.

"I was confused and I needed time to think. I'm sorry, Joong."

I shook my head from side to side telling him no. He should not be sorry because it was not his fault.

"Don't be, I should be the one to apologize. I'm sorry, Nine."

He pinched my nose and he giggled. I guess we are back again.

I reached for his face and moved my hand to his cheeks. His skin is soft like I'm holding the clouds and I found myself drowning from the color of his lips.

I stared at him and he stared back at me.

"I'm sorry." I said.

He smiled.

"I want to kiss you." I blurted out.

There was a hint of surprise on his face after hearing those words but he did not say anything.

I could feel the heat on my face and I wonder how red do I look like.

Our lips were about to touch.

We were about to kiss when the door opened and there was that guy who approached Nine awhile ago.