CONTROL ROOM | NAHYO

CONTROL ROOM

Panting, the woman opened the door to her apartment. She used the handle to support her weight as she caught her breath and finally stumbled in, hands quickly working to get her shoes and clothes off before running into the shower.

Today was a good day, Nayeon thought and  let the hot water cascade her body. She had just come back from a run in the park with Momo, her best friend. The woman had been very excited lately, her relationship with her fiancee was going great and planning for their wedding was easier than she thought it would be. Nayeon was happy too, she was going to be one of the bridesmaids and get to experience the best day of her friend's life by her side.

Everything seemed perfect.

However, no matter how good her job was going or her summer body goals, Nayeon felt like something was missing as she laid her back against the fluffy mattress of her queen sized bed.

There were endless questions,

And no answers.

Why did she suddenly feel so empty? It wasn't that she was jealous she had yet to find the love of her life. Besides, she didn't believe in such things as fate and love at first sight. Nayeon didn't need a partner to feel complete, all of her life she had been fine all alone.

Though something bugged her deep down and wouldn't let her sleep as the feeling of someone watching her started creeping up at the back of her head, body hiding under the covers of her bed.

Another day went by, Nayeon got over with her routine as always. She went to work, came back, went out for a run, met up with her friends for coffee. Every day was the same.

But it never bothered Nayeon until some days ago and now, she can't get that weird feeling off her mind.

Many more days passed.

Months.

Momo was getting married and she had yet to find her excitement back.

Nayeon's life was perfect, no troubles and struggles. Her whole life ran by smoothly and even if she had to be thankful and feel blessed something felt wrong.

What if I'm not really living? she wondered, soon experiencing a sharp pain in her skull.

Nayeon's hands moved to her head, breath hitching as she stood beside Momo in her purple dress, hair neatly styled and beautiful jewellery adorning her long neck.

"Are you alright?" Sana, the second bridesmaid whispered under her breath, a black bracelet on her wrist.

Sana mourned the loss of her father and had only come to the wedding because she knew Momo and her spouse, Dahyun, since they were kids. Although she was hurting, she tried being happy in a day like this.

And that was what Nayeon was missing.

Unlike Sana, she had never felt pain, not so strong at least. Her life had been planned out perfectly since the moment she was born, giving her no option over what she wanted. It sometimes felt that even if she didn't like something at first glance, she would wake up the next morning suddenly loving it. Like she was being controlled.

"That's it." Nayeon mumbled to herself, the buzzing inside her skull getting more intense while she excused herself to the bathroom.

She ran in there, locking the door as she felt her body going numb. What was suddenly going on with her? She had never felt this way before.

Nayeon sucked in a deep breath and her hands gripped the sink, eyes looking into her reflection on the mirror and examining her every flaw.

And that was what Nayeon was missing.