What I want to say when someone asks me why I am moody or down:
"I'm tired of trying to fit into the norms of a person who doesn't know 2 shits about me. I'm tired of trying to cope up with every damned thing school hands me. I am tired if trying to be the perfect role model for those younger to me. I'm tired of trying to fit into society. I'm tired of being pointed at for being fat, despite trying my level best in the limited time I have. I'm tired of trying to socialize, only to be left alone for self-doubt to swallow me up. I'm tired of trying to be the perfect daughter, sister, grand-daughter and scholar. I'm tired of being forced into toxic relations because they are 'family'. I'm tired of having no spontaneity in life. I'm tired of running on 4 hours of sleep every day. I'm tired of waking up, not with a refreshed body, but with one that hurts everywhere. I'm tired of trying to put up with half a class of a-holes. I'm tired of trying to make time for people close to my heart in my packed schedule, when they don't even value it. I'm tired of being the one who once knew everything important about her friends, but now knows nothing but their names, despite how hard I try to make time for them. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of life."
What I end up saying because I am tired of explaining:
"I am tired."
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"Shower Thoughts"
RandomA book filled with happy, sad, depressed, frustrated and ecstastic thoughts that randomly come to me, even outside showers (lol 😂). Hoping to relieve people from stress by helping them string words together. Hoping to help someone struggling with a...
