Pulse

He's The Reason...

Feeling heartbroken, trashed among piles of dirt,confused about my own feelings an what to do.. My heart torn into a thousand  pieces,trying to gather them up an stich them together hoping that it wouldn't turn out that way....

Adrianò Lobos Devenchè is a terrible cunning young guy,he things he can do  toy with me an just go scourt free.. He just made the worst mistake of his life,besides two can play at this game,he isint the only cute an famous guy at school... With my kinda body, sassy attitude an sexy voice I can get any guy I hope for,he shouldn't think that he'sthe only one that's got an eye on me... "No you are just deceiving yourself " says my subconscious an I mentally slap myself out of it.

For the past few days I kept ignoring him,j hanged out a lot with Diane an we became close,she's quiet a nice person to hang out with.... She literally drags me with her to the mall whenever she's got to do some shopping and recently the sexy blond literally forced me into having a make over in order for me to wow them boys as well as the chicks who think they have class more than this nerd over here (me)!!!!

A few days past  by so fast with me still trying my best to not think about that sexy guy of a fool Adrianò Lobos Devenchè.. He's been in my mind all the time an I still here his voice echoing at the back of my mind an it kills me inside to know that he's the first guy that I've ever liked an I think I'm even falling for him,he's gotten to my head like a disease an I can't find a cure for it at all.

The weekend came an I thought finally I can at least find something fun to do an try to get him out of my mind... Diane tried her best to help me get him off my mind too but it didn't help at all.. We went out for the movies together with her,Davis an myself but nothing helped at all,I even saw Adrianò Lobos Devenchè there with the same bitch that my bro Davis likes and for the first time ever I looked at him in the eyes with a fierce look for about a few minutes and Diane came to stand beside me an saw the same thing that I focused my eyes on she wiped my tears that I didn't notice fell from my already watery eyes.... He didn't move from my gaze it seems like he froze an stared at me but I wanted to just run over to him an hug him as well as kiss him an hold him close to me but another part of me just wants to strangle him to death an hurt him like he's hurting me... Even though we aren't an item yet I feel like he's trying to hurt me and I don't know for what reason... It frustrates me to know that he keeps on making advances at me an wants me to say yes to him but he just keeps on acting like a stupid freak that needs a beating.. He literally seems like those guys who can't keep their shit in their pants he just wants to touch girls every now and then.But why with Clara of all people,the same girl over an over again,the same girl that my cousin Davis is interested in,it bothers me to this point seeing them together.. maybe they had a relationship before... Whatever it is they have to fix their shit,because it's confusing the day lights out of me an I can't seem to take it any more.

The following day...

Saturday afternoon I spent the whole time in my room just laying on the bed,with an emotionless expression on my face not feeling shit... I literally felt some kind of weird way,like energy was drained out of me. 

I closed my eyes an imagined...

"Audrey I love you so much,I can't live without you.. She means nothing to me..." Is he talking about Clara?

"I simply just can't stop being around her,she's just keeping me company"

Fuck!!! And I can't keep him company or what?!!!
 
*** He was about to reach for me and the  he ran off...*****

But why,why was he acting this way why?

Did I ever do something to him?

Did I ever hurt him?

Surely not because I never made him feel the way he's making me feel....

He's just a mother fucking ass hole.. !!!

He makes me really angry....

I opened my eyes....

Why would I think of something like this?

And why was he talking to me?

This is just all confusing...

The conniving son of b****!!!!

****.....

See what happens next....