Shay's POV
I laid in bed, while I had on clenching my heart. I heard my door open, and close. I knew it was Yesung, because other than Heechul, he's the only one who has a key to my home. He then opened the door to my room, and stared at me for a moment. He then got on the bed, and pulled me into his embrace. He laid there, and rubbed my back softly as I cried. He didn't open his mouth to speak a word. We laid there in a comfortable silence. That's one of the best things about Yesung, I never have to tell him how I feel. He always just knows and understands. I never have to worry about explaining myself, or feel awkward around him. He has a way of understanding me unlike anyone else.
"Hooney?" I broke the silence as my sobbing had come to an end.
"Hmm." He responded as he ran his right hand through my hair.
"Am I unlovable?" I asked seriously. He then sighed deeply, before he answered.
"Of course not."
"Then why can't the guy I love, love me back?"
"If he doesn't love you, then he isn't worth your time. You need to find someone to love you for who you are, and won't leaving you hanging by a thread." He answered. I laid there, and let his words sink in. I then decided to tell him everything.
"Hooney?"
"Hmm."
"Do you know who I'm talking about?"
"No, but whoever it is, is really starting to piss me off. Ever since yesterday he's had you crying, and it infuriates me." I then sighed to myself. "Who is he, Shay?"
"He's Hyukjae." He then sat up suddenly, and gave me a confused stare.
"Hyukjae? As in Lee Hyukjae?" I then nodded. "That's the punk that's hurt you?" I then nodded again. "I'm not sure I understand."
"I've loved him since I was 14. So one night I confronted him, and confessed my feelings for him. He then told me, he would give me a chance after I turned 19." He then nodded.
"So what now he said he doesn't want you?" He asked, and I shook my head.
"No, he forgot about the promise he made. Not to mention he's dating someone else." I then hung my head. "I'd understand if you're disappointed in me." I then felt his hand slid over mine, which made me lift my head up to look into his eyes. He smiled at me.
"You could never disappoint me. If anything, I should kick Hyukjae's ass for hurting you." I then laughed lightly. I then noticed his expression changed to a serious one. "I don't understand how he can't see just how lucky he is to have your love. I also don't understand how he can't see how wonderful you are." He then lifted his left hand up to my right cheek. His thumb stoked my cheek softly as he spoke. "I would kill to have your love."
"Hooney?"
"Shay." He whispered. "I love you. I always have. I know it's not what you want to hear, especially not right now. But Shay, I can't keep it in anymore. I'd rather you know how I feel, and you reject me, then to go on with the rest of my life without telling you the truth." I honestly had no idea what to say. He then connected our foreheads. "I hate to do this, but Shay, how do you feel about me?" He whispered softly.
"I don't know." I answered honestly.
"Then will you give me a chance? A chance to prove to you that you are worth loving. If at anytime you see that your feelings for me never change, then we can put an end to it. I just want a chance Shay. That's all I'm asking for. You don't ever have to return my love. I just want you, even if it doesn't last." I stared deeply into his eyes, and all I could see was love, and admiration. I then swallowed hard, and made a decision. What have I got to loose?
"Ok. I'll give you a chance. Just please don't break my heart. Hooney. I can't handle another heartbreak." He then smiled, and placed a soft kiss on my forehead.
"I wouldn't dream of hurting you." He whispered softly, before pulling me into a warm, loving hug.
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