Shay's POV
Yesung and I laid in bed, and just stared at one another for the longest time. I honestly have no idea what to say. He told me that he loves me, but I'm unsure on if I've ever loved anyone other than Hyukjae. Yesung then smiles at me as if he knows exactly what I'm thinking.
"Shay, you don't have to work out your feelings right now. I know you love him, and how unsure you are if you can ever love me. I don't want you to know it all right now. Honestly right now is as whole as my hearts been in such a long time. Just laying here, and admiring how beautiful you are if enough for me. If you do end up loving me, then fantastic, if you learn that you don't, then that's ok too. Only time will truly tell Shay. You don't have to have all the answers right from the start. Its ok to be unsure of things. If we always knew everything, then we as humans would never have any fun." He said with a small smile, which I couldn't help but to return. I then swallowed hard.
"I know I feel something very strong for you. I'm just unsure of what it is." He then leaned in and kissed my forehead, then pulled away with a smile.
"Shay-ah. Your words have given me hope."
"Hope for what?"
"Hope that someday you might love me. Not as much as I love you, but there's hope that you could at least grow to love me." I then stared into his brown eyes. For some reason I now find them rather beautiful.
"Hooney?"
"Hmm."
"Can I ask you something?"
"Of course you can." He smiled, and I took a deep breathe.
"Can you kiss me?" His eyes then widened.
"Shay-ah, you've never kissed anyone. Are you sure you want me to be the first?" He asked carefully. I then smiled softly as I ran one of my hands through his hair.
"I feel safe with you, Hooney. So yes I do want you to be the first. I've never been so sure of anything in my entire life." He then leaned in and softly connected out lips. I waited a moment before I responded to it. It was soft, sweet, and made my heart beat rapidly against my chest. I've never experienced anything like this. May this is the way you are supposed to feel when you like someone, and they actually like you back. But like Yesung said, I don't have to have the answers right now. For now I'll just enjoy this new feeling that I have. It feels warm, and amazing. I honestly don't want it to ever get away from me. After he pulls away from me, he studies my face for a moment.
"Are you ok?" He asked, and I smiled.
"I'm more than ok." He then smiles.
"Was it what you had hoped for?"
"It was perfect." His smile then widened as he kissed me again. I think for now I'll follow where my heart leads me. At least this time it seems to be leading me into a better, and happier direction.
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