A/N: sorry. i just needed to vent for a quick bit. ♥︎
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Mafu
It's been a while since we talked.
I head outside the gate of the school, and as I turn to my left, I see him waiting for me.
"How was your day, love?"
"Mafu. How are you?"
I blinked, before smiling. "I've been better. Let's go?"
I walked beside him and went along the long way home to drop him off to his house.
He holds my hand. I look up to him as he smiled at me reassuringly, causing any tension from my mind to disappear. I smiled back before contently swinging our arms together as we walked.
I look up to him as he brought his phone out, an amount of distance between us. It was small, but he felt so far away. "So, why did you decide to hang out with me today?"
"Is there anything wrong with wanting to hang out with my childhood friend?" I smiled up at him, and he gives me the same face in return.
My heart hurts.
I look away immediately. "Y'know, your class really screwed up in the exam today. The teacher was checking it in our classroom today and a whole bunch of you didn't follow the instructions."
We take a turn to the left and bumped into the cat cafe we'd always stopped by on the way home. I stopped walking and just glanced at the window full of cats as a small support.
"Ah, really?" He huffed, ruffling his hair in annoyance. "I told them that it should've been the way I did it.."
"At least you knew better, Soraru-san!" I beamed up at him. "I don't know what I would've done if you actually screwed up.."
"That's because I actually read the instructions before answering, unlike someone here." He flicked his fingers onto my forehead, causing me to yelp.
I looked to him and nodded. As I continued to walk, I run out of topics. I genuinely want to stop feeling bitter towards him and be the good friend I once used to be. This small stretch wouldn't hurt..
"So," I began. "How are things on your end?"
He glanced at me. "I already told you, things at school never really changed. Amatsuki is still annoying me and I still bully Urata while he bullies me back."
"Dummy, I meant other than school." I rolled my eyes, slightly playfully.
"Oh." He takes a small peek at his phone. "It's been okay, I guess. Nothing much happening but not too quiet either."
I nodded. "How are things with.. her?"
"Mafu." He snapped his fingers in front of my eyes. "You're overthinking again."
"Ah," I sheepishly smiled at him. I can't help it when I'm feeling a little insecure..
He looked at me, cupping my cheeks and showing me that smile I had always fallen for.
"I'll always choose you."
He blinks, before slightly smiling. "We talk from time to time. I just often try to find topics to talk about and think before I make conversation."
"Ehh? Why not just create the mood?" I laughed. My heart felt like it was being squeezed and it hurt so bad, but seeing him smile like that again is just worth it.
I don't know what I was signing myself up for.
"Because it'll be awkward!"
"It'll only be awkward if you make it awkward!" I playfully shoved him as I laughed. He shoved me back as well before we both settle back into our slow pace.
Before I knew it, we were already at his building. "Ah, here you are. I can walk on my own from here."
But he still continued walking. "Soraru-san?"
"Let's just get you to your bus, okay?"
"I'm scared for you. I'd feel better knowing that my precious boyfriend is safe on the bus."
I blinked. I feel tears coming up, but I forced that feeling down before running up to his side one more time.
"I can handle myself, y'know." 3 months of loneliness can change people a whole lot.
"I believe you." He said, not looking at my way.
"You won't even look at me when you say that!" I jokingly scolded, earning a grin from him.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
We continued until my bus stop, bantering here and there. I bring myself to look at him in the eyes but I really just can't seem to because it makes me feel like crying on the spot.
"..and Sakata would make fun of me!" I screeched. "If a big sound suddenly played by your ear, you'd jump right?!"
He laughed while nodding and I huffed. "He told me I look like some sort of cat. I wasn't angry that he compared me to one, but I still wanted to punch him in the shoulder and I did."
"That's such a Mafumafu thing to do." Soraru-san wiped a tear from his face that had formed while he laughed.
"I am Mafumafu, after all."
He ruffles my head. "That is true."
I took his hand off my head as I chuckled nervously. I didn't like being touched, and I know he knows that because he just smiles at me sheepishly. I rolled my eyes and poked him in the stomach, tickling him and causing him to back off.
I cling onto him. "I don't wanna leave Soraru-san yeeeet."
He hugs me back, "I don't want you to go yet, too. But your mom would be so worried about you. I don't want you to get in trouble."
I sighed and nuzzle into his neck. His hugs are always so warm and safe. I wanna stay here forever..
He hummed. "Mafu."
"Hmm?"
"Your bus is here."
I snapped out of my thoughts as I saw my bus about to come to a stop. "You seemed really deep in thought. Are you okay?"
"Yeah!" I yelped. "I mean, yeah. Yeah, I'm okay."
He nodded, before standing up. I followed his actions, fiddling with my backpack's sling.
"It was really nice hanging out with you again." Soraru-san spoke up. "I was worried that you started to hate me and would do anything to avoid me."
I have been doing that, but.. "I could never hate you, Soraru-san."
He smiled as the bus came to a stop.
"Take care, okay?"
"You too."
"Mafumafu."
"Hm?" He doesn't usually sound that serious.. Did something happen?
I stopped walking and looked at him. He averts his gaze. He squeezes my hand one last time before letting go.
"Let's end this."
I stepped onto the bus, before turning around. "Bye bye, Soraru-san!"
The blue-headed male turned around to me, slightly befuddled before waving at me.
I decided that was enough before getting on a seat. I glanced outside and followed his slowly shrinking figure as the bus had departed.
I smiled sadly. "It really turns out that I wasn't destined for you after all."
