It was always you

Chapter 11

-Grohl March 2019-

The doorbell rang and put a stop to my thoughts. Pizza was here! I looked around the kitchen and realised I'd cleaned it all while I was lost in my head with all these memories. Damn Grohl, good job! I nodded and gave myself an inner high five.  Then I walked over and opened the door, gave the boy a great tip and thanked him for his trouble.

When he saw that it was me he asked for a selfie. For god's sake, I'm at home, leave me alone. But I gave him a handshake and the usual smiley selfie before he left. I closed the door and walked back to the kitchen. I took a Coors Light from the fridge and sat down and started eating from the cardboard box.

Telling Nate and Chris had been the easy part. But we still had to sneak around, because even though our friends knew the rest of the world didn't. And before we could tell the rest of the world, we had to tell our management. If I'd known what that would lead to back then I would never had done it. I would've just kissed him on stage in front of an arena full of fans and that would've been it. It would've been out and no one would have been able to stop it from spreading. But that's not what happened was it? No... the truth was so much worse.

-2001-

We were sitting around a table in a smaller conference room in the hotel in London. Me and Taylor, Chris and Nate were sitting on one side of the table and our manager John and our tour manager Gus on the other side of it. Around the table were also Paul, the press guy, George our lawyer and our assistant Cece. Everyone knew that Cece had a crush on Taylor. She thought she was hiding it but it was really obvious. And being Taylor, he really liked the attention and just couldn't help himself from flirting with her. I was really worried how she would take the news about me and Taylor being together. It would break her heart and I really didnt like hurting people.

The tension in the room was unbearable. It had been me calling everyone together, saying that the band had some news that we had to share with everyone. And now when we were sitting here it all felt so serious. Taylor grabbed my hand under the table. I could feel that his hand were shaking slightly. I stroke it with my thumb to comfort him and letting him know that I was here. That he wasnt alone, we were in this together.

"So... what did you guys want to talk about?" John said, his voice were a bit stiff like he was waiting for bad news.

"Well..." I started and I felt Taylor giving my hand a squeeze "here's the thing..." I continued and I laid our locked hands up on the table in front of us. I could feel Taylor tense a bit showing them but he didnt let go of my hand. I gave his hand a squeeze and he squeezed back. Everyone was looking at me and Taylor and us holding hands now. I could see Cece's eyes widened and when she realised what she saw she leaned back in her chair with a broken expression in her face. John on the other hand looked at our hands and then up at us.

"You two..?" he asked

"Yes." I said

"Dating?" He asked again

"Yes" I said

"Nooo.... You're kidding right? You're just messing with me?" He said

"No we're not." I said "This, between me and Taylor is real."

"Real how?" John asked

"We're fucking in love alright!" Taylor snapped

There was a slight pause where no one said a word. The silence in the room was deafening and for the first time since we had decided to tell them I was regretting our decision. There wasnt any 'congratulations' or 'we're so happy for you', there was only this uncomfortable silence.