Don't Leave Me

                                                   If you truly love someone, you shouldn't leave them!

                                                                 Never leave the person you love!

Why...? Why did you leave? Please tell me! I don't want to live not knowing why you left! You say you love me, but ...your words are so cold and empty. Just like your touch and your presence, I don't feel like you're here with me.

When you left, I didn't know what to do... I cried myself to sleep every night. EVERY FUCKING NIGHT!! I would dream you would come home and say how much you missed me... and when you came home you never said you missed me... never! Not once. You came home and acted like nothing happened! As a child I didn't know what was going on. I forgave you... but I will never forget that day, the day you left and never came back...

When you came back home you were... different. You had changed, you weren't the same as when you left. Your words were warm and happy, now they are cold and empty. Your touch was warm and inviting, now it's cold, empty, and terrifying. Your voice was like hearing an angel sing, now it's like hearing gunshots and explosions go off in the dark. I use to always want to be around you, now i'm not so sure...

I get scared in the mornings thinking you might come in my room, yelling at me, and beat me death. I get scared when you call my name. I get scared just being around you now... I miss the old you. I miss your smile, your laugh. I miss you being here. Why did you leave? Why did you go? Why didn't you take me with you?! Why do i have be alone? Why, just why?

I'm so lonely... I've become so numb to others... I miss feeling love. I miss feeling the sun on my skin. I miss feeling the touch of loved ones. I miss being not scare every time someone touches me. I'm alone, and in the dark. All by myself, without any light. I'm scared, please... please come back! Please, whatever i did i'm sorry! I'm so so sorry!!

Please come back~

You will never know the true feeling of being alone, until you open your eyes up to the darkness and see... some will never realize how precious someone else's company truly is, until it's too late. 

Friends, family, and even people on the street. can feel so far away.

"I'm right here" is a saying that can feel both comforting, and empty. Sometimes even at the same time. You say you're here with me... but are you really? Are you?

Why do some not see the importance of truly being there for someone. Don't just be there for someone in their time of need. Be there for them all the time.

And never, never leave!

~Shadow_King_18