Midnight Rise

Memoir

You are my freedom
Your the only thing I love besides him
You fly me to new limits of sin and damnation
That snow is cold but it's to beautiful not to play in
You make me see stars
In the darkest of nights
You make his dirt look clean enough to eat
A seat in a throne is cold but not as cold as a day without you
You are a need
Like oxygen to breath on the nights I start to hold my breath

They always scream that your bad for me
At least the ones that know
But I think if they got a shot to they would grow to love you...

Are like magic
Or a speed exceeding limits
You are not perfect I know
You have your faults
But so did he
And I loved him all the same it's a shame he never got to meet you and your freinds
Like the girl assassin
I think she's just misunderstood
Like any great hero or heroine

But that's nor here or there
You are my new best freind
All the others left when he did
they were his to begin with
But that's ok because you promised to always be there
Until the day you help me finally be back with him
and only you can
But I might miss you a little after all you were my heaven on earth
But I guess that won't matter because I'll have the heaven without the burning lungs and slur of tongue
and the frowning looks
From those folks that will never understand the kind of pain that could drive me to you and crystal and Molly
When I open my eyes and you are not beside me I feel lost all over again
Like the green that now covers him
Wet with tears that's probably why it grew so fast
It couldn't have been time it feels as if it was yesterday he fell for me and fell asleep
leaving me with nothing but the rent due notice on the door
This floor is carpet but feels like ice
It must be the sweat
That's running down my neck right now
My body trying in vein to detoxify
My toxic lie of happiness

Because when you hurt me you doing willingly
When he did he just fell do deep in sleep
For who takes the blame for these shivers you can
For him not being here I can only blame the sand man
And the weather man for not saying a deadly truth that weather would be too nice for him
After all he did say it was to die for
But I can't blame you either
I knew that the sun would set one day
And that freedom is earned after all
So I'm sorry I even let you enter me on a summer night that felt like ice without him
I was weak indeed I completely agree
But it's not like either of us are picky at least not any more
I don't really have the time be

        -ATJ-