jeyjey's pov
the next months between benji and i consisted of glances in the hallways, occasionally a wave or a smile, but nothing more. normally he's awake and gone before i'm up and back to the dorm after i'm asleep. he tries to avoid me at all costs. the only time we'd talked was me asking him the answer to a homework question.
it was horrible. benji was actually a good friend, even though i sometimes acted like i hated him. i really didn't hate him, ever. he was my best friend here at school, but i had to up and ruin that for myself.
it's been nearly 6 months since he kissed me. schools almost out. but i want to mend our friendship before we part ways. i don't know if he's planning on transferring to a different college for next year, again, we haven't talked at all.
i just have no idea how to even begin to say sorry. 'hey sorry i yelled at you for kissing me when i clearly told you i wasn't interested multiple times even though i was secretly in love with you and replay our kiss in my head every 10 minutes'? that seems a little bit too straightforward.
interrupting my thoughts, the man himself walks through the door, gingerly opening it as if a bomb might explode if he went too fast.
"hey benji."
he walked in fully, giving me one of those awkward nod things you give to strangers when you pass them on the street.
i noticed he had a swollen eye and a cut on his cheek bone.
"oh my god are you okay? what happened?"
"i'm fine." he went to the bathroom, dramatically closing the door behind him as if he was trying to tell me that i wasn't allowed to follow him.
but i didn't listen. i walked right in, closing the door behind me.
"jeyjey what are you doing?"
"i'm talking to you."
"about?"
"about the fact that i'm sorry. schools almost over and i can't keep acting like we aren't friends. i miss you benji. and i think you miss me too. also here to talk about the fact that you look like you got hit by a car."
he chuckled a bit at the last part. "long story. and of course i miss you, but i can't go back to being your friend. and i'm sorry about that jeyjey but it's because i miss you in a way more than how friends miss each other, and i'm not afraid to admit that. i would give anything for you to kiss me again, literally anything, because i love you jeyjey. and you don't love me back, and that's okay. i understand. but i can't keep acting like your friend because it's slowly killing me inside. one day your gonna get into a relationship with someone who isn't me and if i'm your friend when that happens, i might actually kill myself. but if we're distanced, if we're not friends, then i don't have to worry about it. i don't have to hear you rant to me on and on about how great the other person is. all of those glances in the hallway, stares during class, every time i just look at you and i'm in awe. you are the most gorgeous person i've ever met in my life. and here i am, standing here like an idiot in our dorm bathroom, confessing my love to you after not talking to you for 5 months, which by the way those were the hardest 5 months of my life. but anyways jeyjey, i guess what i'm saying is goodbye. we might see each other again in the future, but after school ends i will request another roommate for next year. i love you, goodbye jeyjey."
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hey guys! two chapters in one day who am i? just a heads up this story will probably only have a few more chapters since i already know where i'm going to take it (and yes it all leads back to the bracelets that they gave each other when they were kids). any ideas for another book would be great! i was kinda thinking about doing one where they hate each other, but slowly fall in love. anyways, love you guys.
