Board Friendship

This Painful

i just - i just woke up one day, and i knew
what i was never sure of with you

who stand to hear the complaints of people you care who complained about people they care about? who tried to hold always there but never been considered? who are resistant to withstand the pain of our love headstone in the name of friendship? who hold constantly hidden behind a sick sense? it's me

i don't remember these are the days, months, or even year that i'm still standing here. trying to be a part of would like to see, but even neglected. there's always saturated every you, but never do you consider the real existence

i had never thought this would feel comfortable transformed into love. i never thought our meeting would make me opiate. i never thought that your warm gaze would make me dropped off in this small game feeling. you make me a reason to remove your saturated from messy life. as usual, i'll entertain you with a crisp jokes that will appeal asymmetrical your lips smiling

i inadvertently liked your agile movement while you play the ball, i inadvertently liked your presence in space that had been empty without you, i inadvertently expect your presence at each event, i inadvertently liked every story that comes out of your mouth

i like when you laugh. reflex your eyes narrowed leave small eyeball which is reflects me in it. i also like when your laughter stops pause, your squinty eyes widened gradually returned, but did not eliminate merrily on your face. i like when you enthusiastically ask me to spoke about the future. throw me the question 'if' which i think is very annoying, such as; if we split up, if we will not meet again, and others

until i realized, there are boards that make our hearts feel much. board friendship

i don't want to expect much, but you gave me the opportunity for a lot of hope. every word that comes out of your mouth, as though made me think. think hard about what you desire to hide behind the questions. i finally gave up, unable to crack the code that may actually not the code

i would like to ask for clarity, but clarity what should i know of a friendship which greatly complicates this? clarity about feelings? that even i don't know if you feel the same as i feel. clarity what should i know?

why this comes a sense of comfort among friend who have i interlace? why i cannot choose whom i love? why my mind always obey all desire this sense, it is clear that i'm sick sense subject to the feel?

because God has every reason in His plan

but if the reason God brought us together is not listed we'll both be together, i opted for the reincarnation

and if reincarnation exist, i still choose to be acquainted with you. i will remain at your side, rear side after special sides you keep. i'll still see you in a room where we first met and still cast a glance to you. i will stand here with a heart wall which began fragile to hear the cries of my heart