Emotions Calum Hood (ON HOLD)

Chapter 17..

- Louise's POV -

It's been about three days since Mali's passing.

Calum isn't the same , Paul isn't the same. No-one is. Nothing is the same.

Don't get me wrong , it's not as if I'm the same either. I've cut a lot lately.

I know ,

I promised everyone I'd get better but.. It's hard. It's like a drug. Addicting. It's like , everyone hates you , you should be off this world. Then you feel selfish for only thinking of yourself so you cut deeper to drown your internal pain in your physical pain.

It's a weird thing pain. It'll be so painful at Mali's funeral. Which is today. How will I face Calum ? Paul ? I can't imagine what pain they're going through right now. I cannot imagine it like what I am going through.

I wipe the blades and put them back in my drawer ,

Hidden from everyone.

Then I put on my black dress , which my mother laid out for me.
I look at myself in my mirror , making sure my wrists are covered before walking downstairs.

Calum and Paul are there.
"You guys ready ?" Paul seems like the only one that can talk right now. They both look terrible ,

Paul doesn't have make up on , and looks terrible. Calum.. Oh gosh Calum. He looks like he's been crying all day. And night.

Calum stands up silently grabbing my hand and walking outside my home with me.

Paul follows us. I feel like I want to burst into tears , but I know I can't.

I'll stay strong for Calum. I'll stay strong for Paul and the rest of Mali's family.

- Calum's POV -

You know how people say 'it'll get better'.
Well congrats on being the shittiest liars in the world.

Mali's gone. And so am I. Well. The world is a cruel place , just for me.

I hate this world.

If it weren't for Louise , I swear I would've killed myself by now.

I think she managed to stop cutting. So she's showed me people can stay strong.
Even at the worst times.
We arrive at the funeral.

I wanted it to be family only but about a thousand people are here. Wow. Mali was loved , I knew that already. Of course she was.
I still hold Louise's hand , frequently squeezing it from nervousness.

I don't think I want to talk to anyone again.

We take our seats in the front row , me , Paul , Louise , Michael , Luke , Grace etc. then on the other side is my family.

Mali would've wanted this. We have her favourite band playing in the background , and she's all dressed up in her coffin , with a microphone , and her song book. I grab Louise's hand as the funeral starts , vowing to myself to never let her go

- Anonymous POV -

Awk well. Mali's gone. Who cares ? I'm at her funeral, laughing inside at everyone crying. Pathetic. Crying over someone as stupid as Mali. Mali is just as useless as Louise. Louise next on my list. I know she still cuts. Wait until Calum finds out.

---------------wow, bet you didnt think that would happen :0 emotional.. :( thanks molly for helping write this, love yaa, voye&commentxo