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A Huge Decision

Kabir exited from the backdoor of the restaurant and was surprised to see an empty street. He searched for Palomi. He turned right and saw to the extreme end of the wall and there she was. She was hiding her face and she had leaned on the wall and was murmuring something. Kabir walked furiously to give his piece of mind.
When he came near her he shouted, "What the hell Pallu? What were you doing in there?"
Palomi didn't move a muscle. Kabir was sick of her so he pulled her hands off her face. He saw that she had moist eyes and she started weeping. Kabir was speechless. He thought of lowering his voice and to keep cool. He came near her to hug her but she pushed him away.
She shouted, "Fuck off. Just stay away from me. Fu..." She continued sobbing.
Kabir asked, "Palomi, I'm talking to you. I'm here with you. Right now, we both are together. I love you so much. Why do you think we're not perfect?"
She screamed so loud that she almost started coughing. She then shouted, "Because we aren't a perfect couple. They think we are a couple who are made in heaven and we love each other to the... I don't know what not. That's not us. We have the most flawed relationship ever! Like ever! I just couldn't stand their non - sensual assumptions about us."
"Then why did you have to fire like that? Its so embarrassing Omi. Do you even realize that?"
"And its even more embarrassing to just nod your head to something which is a complete lie. I just can't pretend anymore. I just..."
"Palomi everyone had gathered here for a nice time but you just ruined it. It's a social gathering for God's sake and its not about us. They think that we've fought or something."
"We did fight yesterday."
Kabir lost his mind, "You fought. You screamed. And you cried. I was neutral."
This made her cry more. He said, "Fine, we fought. But that's our personal matter Pallo. You can't let everyone know what's going on between us."
"I don't care. I. Don't. Fucking. Care! If they don't have the power to listen to what I say, which is the truth, then I definitely cannot listen to what they say, especially when it's a lie."
Kabir hit his forehead hard with his palm. He was irritated. He shouted, "Why are you behaving like a child? Is this your first social gathering? You know what, I'm sick of you. You're just testing my patience. I can't take this. I work everyday Palomi. I visit here every weekend only to see you."
"You don't come every weekend."
"Okay I rephrase my sentence. I come here once a month just to spend time with you. But I don't think you appreciate my presence. You cried yesterday. You're crying now. You are just getting melodramatic day - by - day after watching I don't know what. Your mind is being an asshole. And plus you're trying your best to avoid me. You aren't even telling me why you're crying. Why are you snapping at everyone? Why are you angry with me? Why are you crying?"
Palomi looked down. She wasn't answering. Her eyes were still moist.
Kabir shouted to get an answer, "Why are you quiet? Palomi Shah answer me!"
"I hate myself! I hate this world! I hate you! I hate my life! I hate my fucking mind! I hate those fools sitting inside waiting for us! I just hate everything present here!"
Kabir took time to process everything. He said in a low voice, "You hate me?"
"See, that's why I was quiet because I didn't wanna hurt you. My mind is fucked up!"
Both were silent for a while. Kabir's mobile started ringing. It was Kunal. He answered the phone.
Kunal asked, "Bro is everything alright?"
He whispered, "I'll call you in a bit."
Kabir hung up the call. Palomi looked drained out and she looked dead from outside. Kabir kept his hands on her shoulders and asked, "Do you want to go home?"
"I'll go by myself."
"What do you mean?"
"You know what? I've been thinking about it for a while and I think we must split."
Kabir was shaken. He took his hands off her shoulders. The only thing he could say was, "Are you crazy?"
"Yes I am. I am the craziest human in the whole wide world. You come home with me now and pack your stuff and leave. I don't want to see your face again. I hate you. You're a different person to me now. I am a changed person and I can't think straight at all. I really don't know what's going on."
Kabir was about to cry because Palomi said she hated him. He said, "Palomi, please don't do this. Please. Okay fine. I'm sorry for whatever I might have done. Baby I love you. I love you since fifteen years or maybe more. You are the only person I've been so close to. I..."
Kabir started crying. Palomi saw that and she wanted to comfort him. She started crying too. She became a little calmer and felt like talking.
She said, "I hate myself so much that I am scared of everything. I'm scared of myself. I can't sleep at night with the fear within me. I am becoming a monster from inside I feel. I am anxious every minute. My hands tremble all the time. Sometimes I just go breathless and numb for a long time that I get a feeling that it's just the end of 'me'. I don't want to live my life with this fear. I'm tired living like this. I'm just scared. I don't know what's wrong with me. My mind is turning evil I feel."
"Stop it Palomi. Your mind is multiplying simple thoughts. I know your mind better than you do. Your mind is trying to corner you. Palomi, if you don't shush your mind I'm afraid you'll die."
Palomi maintained eye contact this time. She said, "I want to die. I want to die. I don't want to live. I just want to die."
Kabir didn't know how to react. He said a little sternly, " Palomi. You're just 28. You are too young to decide this baby. Just think about me when you think of dying. Imagine how hurt I'll be without you. Then who will I irritate? Who will I love then?'
Palomi looked down. She suddenly lost that calmness and clarified, "I'm breaking up with you. Just take your stuff and never return."
She walked towards the main road while Kabir followed her and grabbed her hand very tightly.
Palomi screamed, "Leave me Kabir. I'll scream so loud that people will come running to help me. Just leave me."
"Palomi don't do something that you'll regret. Please. Just listen to me for once. Please don't ruin the only beautiful thing I have in my life."
Palomi screamed louder, "Leave me Kabir. Leave me you... You molester."
Kabir immediately left her hand. She looked at him and walked off. Then she shouted from a distance, "Before I forget. After taking your stuff, leave your spare key on the dining table. Goodbye."
Kabir just looked at Palomi walking off. His vision was getting blurry and he felt abandoned. He fell on the ground and started weeping.
Palomi was crying too. She was walking as fast as she could and caught a taxi. She sat inside it and as the breeze gushed inside the window, she felt more free to cry more.
Kunal came out of the restaurant and spotted Kabir. He ran to give him a hug.
Kabir mumbled, "How can she do that? Why did she break up with me? Why?"

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